No, of course I don't, and I have absolutely no self hatred. I am not the problem, but rather life is instead. It wasn't my fault that I was forced into this horrific world filled with endless suffering, and in my case thoughts of suicide are what make so much sense. I don't see existence as being worth enduring, and wanting to die is just the logical response to this. There is nothing appealing about existing that could ever make me wish to stay here and I envy those who choose to voluntarily leave this world. I consider them to be the true fortunate ones, as they are free from the awful and unnecessary burden that is existence.