Yahwa
씨발년
- Mar 28, 2023
- 82
Hi everyone, sorry for the title I didn't know what to write.
While I don't have a set date to CTB, I've already been gathering what I'll need for a while and almost have everything I need. As a lot of you, I've already tried KMS several times over the last few years but it was through ODing on benzos, which I have a shit ton of, and because of these (unsuccessful) ODs, my body has become more tolerant of them, which resulted in them no longer being effective at all to get rid of my anxieties, let alone get high or die from it. So I wanted to know if I let enough time pass, will my resistance decrease? I haven't planned to CTB through ODing again, but I at least wanna be able to take a few benzos to feel relaxed when that day comes. Especially if I can't get access to SN and have to go with plan B, which is the night night method atm. I know I'll likely start panicking beforehand and won't follow through so I need to be in a relaxed state before I even attempt anything. And just to be clear my only fear is for my attempt to yet again fail and that this time I wake up brain damaged/paralyzed and that I won't be able to try again on my own later on.
TIA
While I don't have a set date to CTB, I've already been gathering what I'll need for a while and almost have everything I need. As a lot of you, I've already tried KMS several times over the last few years but it was through ODing on benzos, which I have a shit ton of, and because of these (unsuccessful) ODs, my body has become more tolerant of them, which resulted in them no longer being effective at all to get rid of my anxieties, let alone get high or die from it. So I wanted to know if I let enough time pass, will my resistance decrease? I haven't planned to CTB through ODing again, but I at least wanna be able to take a few benzos to feel relaxed when that day comes. Especially if I can't get access to SN and have to go with plan B, which is the night night method atm. I know I'll likely start panicking beforehand and won't follow through so I need to be in a relaxed state before I even attempt anything. And just to be clear my only fear is for my attempt to yet again fail and that this time I wake up brain damaged/paralyzed and that I won't be able to try again on my own later on.
TIA