BrokenByTheSystem
Autism
- Mar 23, 2026
- 138
I used to talk to a single online friend I had but she just stopped answering my messages with no further explanation a few days ago.
It was my only friend. I only use WhatsApp as messenger app, it's currently empty, literally not a single conversation, I open it and it's empty, after I deleted that last conversation.
I'm afraid, feeling abandoned, alone, imminent feeling of death. I need to find a way to kill myself silently with no much setup, because there's always people near me in my home, even tho I spend my days locked inside my bedroom alone. I'm afraid of being monitored when I leave my bedroom.
Today is a terrible day. Suddenly things get worse. I could feel less alone when I had this one and only friend to talk, but now I'm mostly certainly she gave up.
It was my only friend. I only use WhatsApp as messenger app, it's currently empty, literally not a single conversation, I open it and it's empty, after I deleted that last conversation.
I'm afraid, feeling abandoned, alone, imminent feeling of death. I need to find a way to kill myself silently with no much setup, because there's always people near me in my home, even tho I spend my days locked inside my bedroom alone. I'm afraid of being monitored when I leave my bedroom.
Today is a terrible day. Suddenly things get worse. I could feel less alone when I had this one and only friend to talk, but now I'm mostly certainly she gave up.
