Loneliness is killing me

[NPCaesar]

Hey guys, i rly don't know where else to post this, so Ill do it on this forum, because the people I met here were always super supporting and gave great advice.

My entire life I feared being lonely, its up to this day my biggest fear, and I honestly think that it has never been worse then now. I graduated from school this summer and am now waiting for my first Semester at College to begin, Iam really looking forward to it, and on paper my life seems to be going well. But to be frank, I just feel super lonely at the moment.

All my friends from school rarely wanna meet up irl and just stay at home and talk via call, which is fucking sad. Our clique in school was never this stereotypical nerdy bunch of Pc freaks, who never saw the light of day, we were just regular guys, but this whole ordeal makes me feel like all of my friends, including me, are the biggest bunch of losers. I see all of these people in my age, going out, partying, making all these memories I dont make, while I just sit at home and rot away doing nothing. This shit just drags me down so much. I spent so long getting out of this hole of depression in the recent years, all on my own, without much outside support and I dont want to go back down. But it feels like, that this situation leads me directly back into this downward spiral.

I told my father about how I feel, and he said that he understands my woes 100% and that he agrees that Iam in very shitty situation rn. He says that I need to hold out and that it will be better again, once I start going to college, where I will meet more outgoing types of people. And I honestly hope that hes right. Otherwise idk what to do...

Thx for reading this, I just felt like I had to vent that somewhere

 

[soon4good]

Loneliness is a kind of pain you can feel but also not really

 

[deep-sleeper]

Loneliness is a kind of pain you can feel but also not really

I can feel it man, for me it gives a physical sensations like shivering

 

[ratscuff]

I totally feel where you're coming from. And, as to not turn this into something about myself, I'll leave it with: I completely understand, and have had incredibly experiences - and then some.

You can't expect anyone to act the way you'd like/need. Its incredibly horrid that so many you're closed to end up a completely different person after knowing them for so long. It feels like being lied to, and is a whole different side of pain that a lot won't understand because they've never experienced it. Ultimately it leaves you feeling alone on a planet with 8+ billion people, and the loneliness can be physically shattering.

You're not alone here. We all are here for you, friend. I hope you have something you can latch to, like a hobby or whatnot. It makes everything ease just a little. But all in all, I hope there's some sense of peace for you in the future. Whether its from college or not.

This was a bit of a ramble, and admittedly I shouldn't be writing this tired. But I hope this finds you well. Much love.

 

[whatishope]

Your father is spot on that. Friends groups from hightscool fall apart pretty quicky. and are replaced by university freind groups. in university, you can kindof meet all kings of people, which is what makes it the best social space ever. I wish you good luck to it.

 

[outrider567]

Me too--My loneliness from her death is permanent, the passage of time means nothing

 

[katara]

Me too--My loneliness from her death is permanent, the passage of time means nothing

Things really don't get better do they? I see we've both been on this site for years. If you need someone to talk just dm me