Venting living with bipolar + eds

[free.maia]

this is gonna be more of a vent post but life is so tiring right now
i was just released from inpatient care after a pretty extreme manic episode. my bipolar disorder combined with an eating disorder makes every day a living hell. both my body and mind are failing me and atp i hope my organs give out already so i dont have to wait any longer
feel free to vent below

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

I'm bipolar and had a manic episode in June followed by a bout of debilitating depression.
Theres never a happy medium when you suffer from this shit.
I'm hoping for some kind of natural death too so I don't have to jump.
A brain aneurysm or to die in my sleep would be nice.

 

[drennedrat]

i have bipolar disorder too. got hospitalized twice in the spring for an intense manic episode with psychosis. been really depressed since. i'd just rather prevent another scary and embarrassing episode by checking out.