Discussion Living for the future?

[Fadeawaaaay]

Throughout my life I was always counting on the future being brighter. I was able to except a diminished experience in the present assuming I would have everything worked out at some future date.

The future arrived and it was a catastrophe. I'm no longer counting on a better future.

How about you? Did you assume things would just work out one way or another?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Nope. Idk how i managed to get this far, but it was not worth the struggle. There is no incentive for me to stick around.

 

[αmber]

I did.

Hope kept me going for most of my life. Once time passes and the Future finally becomes the Present, Hope vanishes and we are once again left alone by ourselves. If we can't immediately hold onto another kind of Hope, we are pushed back by the hands of the Past or ripped apart by the harshness of the Present.

Hope can deceive us into thinking there is a better state of things ahead of ourselves. I think Hope may be some kind of sadistic entity, deceiving us and then watching us being broken apart into pieces by Time.

 

[FuneralCry]

Thinking of the future is dreadful. I have never really seen myself as having a future, there has been nothing that I have ever wanted from life. I have never had any hope for anything. Life scares me overall and ever since I was young, all that I have wanted is to not exist. I am only still alive as it is difficult for me to leave this world.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I did.

Hope kept me going for most of my life. Once time passes and the Future finally becomes the Present, Hope vanishes and we are once again left alone by ourselves. If we can't immediately hold onto another kind of Hope, we are pushed back by the hands of the Past or ripped apart by the harshness of the Present.

Hope can deceive us into thinking there is a better state of things ahead of ourselves. I think Hope may be some kind of sadistic entity, deceiving us and then watching us being broken apart into pieces by Time.

Hope is what keeps normal people going day to day. Without it you've got nothing.

 

[Achlys]

That is how I have lived thus far. Since accepting that my desired future will likely be forever out of reach, I can scarcely motivate myself to continue. Everything feels pointless.

 

[Lullaby]

I know I'm still young, and it's not good to put a timer on things, but I definitely expected more for myself by this time and not to be in the exact same position.

Things seem don't seem to be getting better, or they're the same. I can't tell which is more worse. Despite all of this, I was still pretty hopeful for my future, but lately that was snatched out of my life and now I'm not so sure what to do anymore.

Do you keep going and hope that maybe thing will turn around, or do you just accept that it won't and refuse to keep being disappointed? That's basically where I'm at.

 

[western_heart]

I had hope for the future right up until February 29 2020.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I know I'm still young, and it's not good to put a timer on things, but I definitely expected more for myself by this time and not to be in the exact same position.

Things seem don't seem to be getting better, or they're the same. I can't tell which is more worse. Despite all of this, I was still pretty hopeful for my future, but lately that was snatched out of my life and now I'm not so sure what to do anymore.

Do you keep going and hope that maybe thing will turn around, or do you just accept that it won't and refuse to keep being disappointed? That's basically where I'm at.

Well, if you're relatively young, you might be able to find some hope. It is easier to reinvent yourself at a younger age. You have more energy. You have more time to build something. As for a career, it's easier to start at the bottom and work your way up.

On the other hand, you might also feel powerless and weak.

If you're young and you have a shred of hope, I hope you can find your way out into the world.

 

[Slimetae]

Ehh expect things to get worse but will see if I ain't dead by then

 

[Seafoam]

Lol I had so much hope when I was younger that things would get better, I was borderline delusional. I've since learned to reel in my expectations.

 

[Lostandlooking]

Growing up I always expected things to get better as I got older. Even though I could never really envisage it. There were times when I thought it was getting better. But ultimately I'm always faced with defeat or disappointment. If I have to rely on past experiences I think there will be much more unhappiness for me in the future. Still, foolishly I keep hoping that I'll find life tolerable in the future.

 

[fizi22]

that applies to me for sure. in the past i was able to sacrifice time because i was still young and i was counting on making it up in the future. but now im old and the future is bleak. what the fuck is there to live for lol

 

[clown_17]

Hope is what keeps me alive. It's probably the only reason I'm not dead yet. I try to hold off on self destructing and ctb because I still hope that maybe I'll be able to cure or at least recover from my mental illnesses. I was a very successful and creative child before my brain went to shit and I really just want to get back to a healthy mindset so I can create things. I've been told all my earlier years that I was good at music and good at writing and I guess I wish that I could do those things once again, if only just to prove to myself that I do have worth. Because all I do currently is disappoint myself and others and I don't want to die knowing that's all I've done recently. In short: "I don't want to end the season on a bad episode." I just can't die knowing I'll never have gotten to create or feel joy again.

As time goes on my hope fades. I'll hold on as much as I can, but with years passing I feel my chances of recovery fading. I was told that since I'm still young (under 20) that I have a good shot of recovery. But with the years passing I know that my chances only go down.

 

[T90-Alpha]

i keep clinging onto this sense of hope that one day, life will get better for me. Nope, That hasn't happened for me. my life has been going downhill, the minute things seem like they might be going better, it goes crumbling down.

i feel worse and worse every day, i don't know what to do anymore with my life.