Venting I really do not want to fucking be here right now

[pleasexbexover]

I'm literally not cut out for any of this
I shouldn't even be on this site
I would happily trade my life so that others, who wanted to live, could do so
I am in nothing but misery. No feeling that is good is a feeling that lasts
My mind body and soul are tired, so tired to the point where I just want to stop in all aspects and let myself die a slow and painful death. That feels like the only way I'd be able to achieve it at this point
I'm tired of my survival instinct always rearing it's head, I want to stick to a plan and not deviate from it. Regardless of how much I've hoped and wanted, things DO not, HAVE not, and most likely WILL not get better in the near future.
I'm sorry
I don't want to do this anymore

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of it all, I also wish to be gone, all I want is to never suffer ever again, I wish you the best.

 

[pleasexbexover]

If I had any viable resources on hand I would do it tonight without thinking about it much

 

[LetMeOut67]

Of course it's not easy to exit this purgatory.
Adding insult to injury.
So you plough on year after year after year, jumping through hoop after hoop after hoop. Desperately wanting nothing but an end to it but knowing that's something you won't get for a very very long time. Forced to suffer this world of hate humiliation and torture because ending your agony will impact others.
How the hell did this hellscape come into existence?
For what purpose?? The history of the world is nothing but misery. And certainly nothing to justify the immense suffering.

 

[Alexandra_]

I understand you very well, because I am in the same situation. Life is disgusting to me. I hug you and wish you all the best

 

[Seaghost]

I would happily trade my life so that others, who wanted to live, could do so
I am in nothing but misery. No feeling that is good is a feeling that lasts
My mind body and soul are tired, so tired to the point where I just want to stop in all ...

I feel you. the same i true for me.
You have my fully understanding!