Venting like a ghost

[gnarly]

It happens all the time. At least it feels that way. I try my best to involve myself with others but in the end I always just get ignored. I remember when I was young(hell even nowadays) I'd get told how I was so quiet and would just kind of appear. Would startle people sometimes. I don't like that. Not one bit. I just wanna be seen as another human. Instead I get ignored. I sit alone. And fill myself with drugs to drown everything away. No Friends. No Love. Just me in a dark room and the voice in my head. I tell myself jokes and talk to myself just to feel like I still have a bit of soul in me. But tbh it's dying out.. Not like I had the brightest soul to begin with. Every day I would yearn to have a group a friends..Hell even 1 would be nice. I would think about how much happier I'd be if I wasn't so alone. But I'm so boring and weird that now no one wants to really be my friend. Ig Im just meant to be alone. And I hate that.

 

[Languish]

Two lonely people who each often feel ignored - perhaps you can message each other and form a friendship?

As for myself.. I isolate intentionally. I seek to not be perceived. I want to be unseen, anonymous, quiet.

Still, I suppose I'm somewhat better off, as I can share in silence with the one I love.

I am sorry for the hand life dealt you.

 

[webb&flow]

Am so sorry to hear that, friend. Feel most free to write me any letters via PM's about anything you like, and I'll read & respond to them. Best of luck. Socialization is difficult & you're not weak for struggling with it. My wishes.