Life itself pushes you to do it

[Chabrychek]

Whenever you have a little desire to stay in this world, it reminds you that it's not for you. Just when you think it can't get any worse, it gets worse. I feel so absurdly bad that I want to laugh at it. Literally caricaturally tragic. No family, no friends, no home, no future, years wasted coping with what was done to you as a child. And no one is going to help you. You are completely alone in this terrible, cruel, unjust world.

 

[ifckinhatelife]

Yes. I see that. For me, no one will help and no one is able to, even if they want.

You're right about being reminded that this life isn't for us. Recently I had a little hope or excitement after applying for a job which I don't actually like. But in this situation, that was considered lucky to have. Long story short, I got rejected. And after the rejection, I suddenly realized what I need to do next, again. And holy shit, it's not even easy to picture.

First, I don't even dare to open job listing till now. Then I imagine at the end I have to pay taxes, bills, all alone. And all that in miserable condition. So realisticly, no future, only torture. It wasn't just about being rejected from 1 job.

And yeah, life always finds a way to surprise us when we thought it couldn't get worse.

Now, I'm still waiting for courage to do it. Hope I can get the courage surge soon. It'll be nice if I have someone to ctb together, but that's impossible to find. Unfortunately everyone will try to prevent without considering what we're going through. They'll never see that ctb isn't just absolutely "stupid" or "forbidden". It's impossible to get support.

 

[Fadenself00_]

Brutal neutrality.

 

[KilledByUSG]

Whenever you have a little desire to stay in this world, it reminds you that it's not for you. Just when you think it can't get any worse, it gets worse. I feel so absurdly bad that I want to laugh at it. Literally caricaturally tragic. No family, no friends, no home, no future, years wasted coping with what was done to you as a child. And no one is going to help you. You are completely alone in this terrible, cruel, unjust world.

:(

Do you have any places where you share? Your situation sounds really bad, I don't know how you manage it

 

[Chabrychek]

Yes. I see that. For me, no one will help and no one is able to, even if they want.

You're right about being reminded that this life isn't for us. Recently I had a little hope or excitement after applying for a job which I don't actually like. But in this situation, that was considered lucky to have. Long story short, I got rejected. And after the rejection, I suddenly realized what I need to do next, again. And holy shit, it's not even easy to picture.

First, I don't even dare to open job listing till now. Then I imagine at the end I have to pay taxes, bills, all alone. And all that in miserable condition. So realisticly, no future, only torture. It wasn't just about being rejected from 1 job.

And yeah, life always finds a way to surprise us when we thought it couldn't get worse.

Now, I'm still waiting for courage to do it. Hope I can get the courage surge soon. It'll be nice if I have someone to ctb together, but that's impossible to find. Unfortunately everyone will try to prevent without considering what we're going through. They'll never see that ctb isn't just absolutely "stupid" or "forbidden". It's impossible to get support.

I'm so sorry about your situation. Financial and job problems have been some of the hardest slaps in the face the world has ever dealt me. I was like, "So this is life. I'm out."

I currently have a job, but it's not full-time. And, honestly, I really really thought I'd enjoy it, that it would calm me down. But it's become another nightmare. I am shocked at how cruel life is. Now I just hope that I will have the courage to finish it in a month

:(

Do you have any places where you share? Your situation sounds really bad, I don't know how you manage it

I don't, and I don't manage it, unless we count actual ctb planning as manage