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IThirst4Freedom

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Mar 23, 2026
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Is it just me or is this existence utterly boring? Like, everyday feels the same almost robotic. We do the same repetitive task everyday then distract ourselves with meaningless things like Tv, social media, online gaming. drugs, ect... Constantly chasing news highs, dreams, goals that in less then 100 years for most of us will not even matter. What is the point of any of this? My only hope is at death, ill be free from this body and be free to roam the universe. Everything is so bland, so colorless, so pointless. This realization in of itself makes me want to CTB. I can't comprehend doing whatever "This" is for the next 50-60 years just for it to mean nothing in the end. Any thing i aim to get will not matter so why try? Its also crazy to me when i explain this to the "average joe" and they look at me like i am crazy. I feel sometimes i am walking around with zombies who are asleep and do not see reality for
how it actually is.
 
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February_In_April

there a time to talk & a time to listen
Apr 5, 2026
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I feel the exact same way about this and my only hope is that either there's nothing beyond all this so that's there no more pain, suffering and boredom or that there's something far better with no more pain and suffering for anybody and find some healing and rest and relief.
 
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I agree, but this human game is utterly boring. I want to be free from this body so my consciousness can explore elsewhere. I feel like am "Awake" to much and have outgrown all of this. I do not want anything, just to to be free and experience something other then this game. i am trying to astral travel again like i did when
i was a kid. I could leave my body and roam around but have not been able to do in in awhile.
 
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Aflame5926

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Apr 3, 2026
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Is it just me or is this existence utterly boring? Like, everyday feels the same almost robotic. We do the same repetitive task everyday then distract ourselves with meaningless things like Tv, social media, online gaming. drugs, ect... Constantly chasing news highs, dreams, goals that in less then 100 years for most of us will not even matter. What is the point of any of this? My only hope is at death, ill be free from this body and be free to roam the universe. Everything is so bland, so colorless, so pointless. This realization in of itself makes me want to CTB. I can't comprehend doing whatever "This" is for the next 50-60 years just for it to mean nothing in the end. Any thing i aim to get will not matter so why try? Its also crazy to me when i explain this to the "average joe" and they look at me like i am crazy. I feel sometimes i am walking around with zombies who are asleep and do not see reality for
how it actually is.
you are 100% no the only one.

being honest won't get you futher in life and these days dreams are memes
we as humans are getting harder and harder against each other and we all seeking some kind of sensation.
regular humans dont want to deal with it. because everybody life in their own bubble.
 
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IThirst4Freedom

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you are 100% no the only one.

being honest won't get you futher in life and these days dreams are memes
we as humans are getting harder and harder against each other and we all seeking some kind of sensation.
regular humans dont want to deal with it. because everybody life in their own bubble.
That is true. Everybody is in their own world just trying to survive. I am just done playing this game, i want to be out.
 
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Aflame5926

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Apr 3, 2026
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I agree, but this human game is utterly boring. I want to be free from this body so my consciousness can explore elsewhere. I feel like am "Awake" to much and have outgrown all of this. I do not want anything, just to to be free and experience something other then this game. i am trying to astral travel again like i did when
i was a kid. I could leave my body and roam around but have not been able to do in in awhile.
we can't. we didnt unlocked the requirement for space adventures/ magic/ some weird ass wuxia tale. we only have the DLC humans vs humans vs bubble edition
 
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IThirst4Freedom

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Mar 23, 2026
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we can't. we didnt unlocked the requirement for space adventures/ magic/ some weird ass wuxia tale. we only have the DLC humans vs humans vs bubble edition
Not sure what you mean. I can say i have left my body and have seen it from above. I know i am not this body. Of course, this is my own experience so i can't
prove it but i know once i am out of this body ill be free.
 
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Aflame5926

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Apr 3, 2026
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Not sure what you mean. I can say i have left my body and have seen it from above. I know i am not this body. Of course, this is my own experience so i can't
prove it but i know once i am out of this body ill be free.
sorry,

i never had that kind of experience. i was just saying some random things game and novel related. i love to read some wuxia (chinese martial art story). and DLC are extra content for a game. stories ingame and light novel are just more exiciting then irl
 
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Is it just me or is this existence utterly boring? Like, everyday feels the same almost robotic. We do the same repetitive task everyday then distract ourselves with meaningless things like Tv, social media, online gaming. drugs, ect... Constantly chasing news highs, dreams, goals that in less then 100 years for most of us will not even matter. What is the point of any of this? My only hope is at death, ill be free from this body and be free to roam the universe. Everything is so bland, so colorless, so pointless. This realization in of itself makes me want to CTB. I can't comprehend doing whatever "This" is for the next 50-60 years just for it to mean nothing in the end. Any thing i aim to get will not matter so why try? Its also crazy to me when i explain this to the "average joe" and they look at me like i am crazy. I feel sometimes i am walking around with zombies who are asleep and do not see reality for
how it actually is.
It's the human drive to "matter" in the universe. It's amazing when you really sit and look at human life. EVERYTHING boils back down to mating, mostly. The music. The movies. The cultures. Everything. Look at what this pathetic species has to do just to perpetuate itself. Go to wars. Needlessly compete. Place themselves in constant discomfort. Just for 15 minutes of "pleasure." Nothing here matters. Nothing that is done matters. Yet, humans have this drive to "matter." They want everything to be "useful" to them. The most useless species on the planet. If the cockroach goes extinct tonight, Earth is in deep trouble. If the human goes extinct tonight, Earth is 1000% better for it. It truly is mind-boggling how we try to generate meaning out of the meaningless. I totally agree with you.
 
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Spite

I don't like this world.
Aug 20, 2025
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Yep. Not only boring, but pointless too. Every day feels like a drag. Both being a wageslave and being a NEET is soul-destroying, just in different ways. As I get older all the days start to blur together because so many of them are mundane and I'm living the same exact thing over and over again. It's like most of my life is a bunch of filler episodes in a TV show. The passage of time becomes more apparent, it intensifies. I can barely cope knowing that in the end it will all be meaningless.

When we die, and enough time passes, it will be as if we never existed.
 
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what a shame she went mad
May 7, 2025
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Agreed life is boring and pointless and all I do is distract myself from reality with fake stuff, stupid really
 
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