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Leisesyn
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- Mar 31, 2023
- 20
Today is the day I realized that life is a trap. At early years of your life, it provides you fun, engagement, dreams and wonders to explore. Or basically it keeps you entertained. As years go by, that factors little by little goes away and there goes the responsibilities and stresses in life. You would not even notice it because you are still engaged to the things that makes you happy. Until you reached to the point that you are tired and want to rest forever, BUT YOU CAN'T because there are these chains that keeps you from resting and these are your family, love ones, friends or responsibilities. For me, I only have 3 persons who are keeping me from resting and I hate it. Tbh, the 2 are my parents and I know for the fact that it is unfair for them to make birth for me which I dont remember actually wishing to be alive. And the 3rd one is my lover. I love her because of her personality and the way she understands me even with my suicide thoughts. I just dont have enough strength to leave her. Maybe if I have the right method, maybe I can decide better.