Life if you hadn’t been traumatized?

[sambrosia]

Ever wonder about how life would've been if you hadn't been traumatized as a kid? (For those who were)

Imagine no endless spirals of rumination. Just being able to get up, go to the gym, go to school or work etc., not have any of that mental background noise — "I'm so lonely", "I hate my life", etc.
Socializing without the anxiety.
Not reading into every interaction. "They made that face, so they must hate me and I'm repulsive"….

I have Borderline as a result of my childhood trauma (as you can probably tell). A quiet brain, where I don't take everything so personally, sounds like heaven.

Unfortunately, I don't think a quiet brain is possible for me in this lifetime. But, it's bittersweet to imagine.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

I don't think all those intrusive thoughts are trauma. Some are, no doubt, but there's also genetic factors, neurological factors, and just, you know, non-trauma thoughts that may intrude.

For me...I dunno if being an orphan is better than being with fucked up parents...maybe better? Depends on who/when someone adopts me.

 

[NonEssential]

I feel like I'd be more confident and social if I hadn't been bullied and ignored by others.

 

[hyuk✮i]

could have been an academic prodigy and have some actual friends in real life, but i know my parents would parade around and put lots of pressure on me
i think i would have stayed an introvert but i wouldn't have been suicidal and mostly shut myself at home for the next half of my life