
kapa
Member
- Dec 19, 2024
- 38
So here we go again. I wanted to ctb new years eve but my friend drag me out of the house (they didn't know my plans). In that moment I've decided to give myself time. I've come out of a long term relationship, never imagine my life without them. Now I see no meaning I lost all the dreams I had, a future I wanted to live and now everything seems fake to me I don't see point in absolutely anything. I bought an apartment which was the biggest dream of mine but I can't be happy about it. I feel absolutely no joy I just want to be gone. I got sn but I'm scared to test it because I think it's not pure. I don't know what method to choose anymore. The guilt is eating me alive when I'm with my family everyone is so happy about my home they are so proud making plans and I don't want to be here....