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MathConspiracy

MathConspiracy

Trapped in a (prison) cell of organic molecules
Mar 25, 2025
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I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you – Linkin Park
This is not an attempt but not a recovery either. I'm leaving because SaSu is no longer bringing me joy. My depression is getting worse and worse and I can't get much enjoyment out of anything. I'm fucking tired.

To be honest, I don't know what will happen after I disable my account. I might catch the bus or I might seek help. Or maybe I'll just vanish into thin air. Or maybe the universe ceases to exist and wipes out all life along with it.

I hope I have been helpful to you. I still might come back someday (I believe users are allowed to reactivate their disabled accounts), but for now I need to come offline from everything.

Thank you and bye bye
 
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lamy's sacred sleep

lamy's sacred sleep

what's a way to just be competent
Nov 22, 2024
1,512
Thanks for spending time here.
Safe travels.
 
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Linda

Linda

Member
Jul 30, 2020
2,164
You don't have to disable your account. You can just stop using the site. (I sometimes take long breaks - months - from the site when I feel I need a break.) If there is any possibility you may wish to return in the future, it's probably simpler not to disable.
 
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inverse-weibull

inverse-weibull

Member
Feb 20, 2025
29
It's been nice getting to interact with you a bit, you seem like a really nice person. Wishing you the best no matter what
 
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iwishtodie8

iwishtodie8

I wish to die
Jan 14, 2025
28
Its fine i hope u peace
 
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moonflow3r

moonflow3r

Knocking on heaven’s door
Oct 6, 2023
228
Good luck on your journey <\3 we will stay here if you decide to return
 
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soonnotkoei

soonnotkoei

got my foot in the grave
Sep 24, 2024
234
good luck and peace. come back whenever.
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
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sending love. we're here whenever.
 
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CentreMid

CentreMid

Midfielder
Aug 23, 2018
539
This is not an attempt but not a recovery either. I'm leaving because SaSu is no longer bringing me joy. My depression is getting worse and worse and I can't get much enjoyment out of anything. I'm fucking tired.

To be honest, I don't know what will happen after I disable my account. I might catch the bus or I might seek help. Or maybe I'll just vanish into thin air. Or maybe the universe ceases to exist and wipes out all life along with it.

I hope I have been helpful to you. I still might come back someday (I believe users are allowed to reactivate their disabled accounts), but for now I need to come offline from everything.

Thank you and bye bye
Best of luck in whatever you choose
 
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bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
Come back when you're ready. I understand the need to do a detox from the Internet.
 
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harleen

harleen

witch
Apr 19, 2025
15
"I'm leaving because SaSu is no longer bringing me joy"

I never once thought this site was meant to bring joy aren't we all suicidal here planning our suicide?
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,802
Good wishes in finding that which you seek.
 
JesiBel

JesiBel

protoTYPE:cclxxv
Dec 5, 2024
1,113
I liked reading you. You're always welcome back. I hope you can find calm and that things get better. Hugs for you.
"I'm leaving because SaSu is no longer bringing me joy"

I never once thought this site was meant to bring joy aren't we all suicidal here planning our suicide?
Interacting with others like us also gives us comfort because we feel understood. When everyone else turns their backs on you, here people open their arms to you. That's how I feel... accompanied.
 
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