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fettyshooter

fettyshooter

zzz
Aug 6, 2026
27
i feel really bad about this but im going to have to die before my boyfriends birthday. how would i go about giving him the stuff i bought him months in advance? a ton of people treat turning 25 like its a huge deal so i bought him a lot more this year than i did the last 2 years. his birthday is in 3 months though so it would be extremely suspicious if i gave it to him now. he would immediately know somethings wrong.

Ive had to take certain clothes and a box of makeup to his house before to hide it from my dad. i thought maybe i could take the eyeshadow out of a palette put his gift + the money ive saved for him in there tape a note to the top and take it to his house a day before i do it. now im not sure if thats a dumb idea. he may never open it. does anyone here have any better ideas?
 
Dawnfang

Dawnfang

Fate calls to us all
Dec 21, 2025
105
If you know the date you're planning to ctb and are deadset on it, you could mail it to him. Even if you guys live in the same town, it should take a day or two to process at the mail centre and to get delivered, etc. By the time he gets it, you'd be gone.
 
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chillino

Student
Jan 30, 2026
127
maybe dont do it before his birthday.
 
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fettyshooter

fettyshooter

zzz
Aug 6, 2026
27
If you know the date you're planning to ctb and are deadset on it, you could mail it to him. Even if you guys live in the same town, it should take a day or two to process at the mail centre and to get delivered, etc. By the time he gets it, you'd be gone.
woah thank you i kinda forgot that was an option. that seems like itll work perfectly the only thing im worried about is half of the contents being illegal but maybe it will be fine. thank you so much!
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Visionary
Nov 12, 2025
2,140
Why would you have to die before his birthday?
 
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fettyshooter

fettyshooter

zzz
Aug 6, 2026
27
Why would you have to die before his birthday?
because its months away and i cant afford to keep buying fent to stay out of withdrawal and still have enough to attempt with. this guy only pays me enough to buy one gram at a time. and my health keeps getting even worse i really dont think ill make it to his birthday without being sent to the hospital again so im spending as much time as i can with him right now. 👍🏻