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ObssessedEirika

ObssessedEirika

“I’m so damn tired.”
Jan 7, 2024
26
What song would you guys choose as your last to listen to before you CTB? I have so many I probably wouldn't be able to pick just one.
 
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final_countdown12

Student
May 7, 2024
189
It was hard decision but i came to this song as i drink N:
 
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Not Today Satan

Not Today Satan

Stretcher fetcher
May 9, 2024
909


Demolition Lovers by My Chemical Romance

At this time I have no plans to CTB in the foreseeable future. However, if it ever comes to that, this would be the song. It was the song that my ex and I would regularly listen to, when he said that he loved me and wanted to spend his life with me. He ended up leaving me because I was affecting his mental health too much. He has very similar issues to me, and we truly understood each other. For a while I truly wanted to live and I wanted to get better for myself because of how he helped me get through things. When he left, he took away my will to live for myself, and left me with only the desire for revenge against my abusers.

I know that no one is going to be there for me at the time I leave, if I CTB. If there is a next life, I hope that someone loves me in that life. If there is no next life, this world won't miss me.
 
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AboutTimeToDepart

AboutTimeToDepart

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Apr 8, 2024
24


It would have to be this one - I absolutely adore this song, and it holds fond memories of a period of time in my life that I really wish I could return to.
 
sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
Chaconne



Woah
Again, chaconne now
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

A castle shaded from the sun
Sensually-intimate scent despite withering
Kiss the dead flowers
My kiss with a nice scent

Brighter than the sun
That's just me
Monster, even if you call me
I don't even care

Dance for me forever
Look at me in the broken mirror
And tune it with the feet
This beautiful moment I don't stop
Woah, again, chaconne now
Dance for mе, like you're drunk and fascinated by mе
I just wanna dance on, can't stop it
This is my world in the dark
Woah, again, chaconne now

Woah-oh, woah-oh, woah-oh
Again, chaconne now
Woah-oh, woah-oh, woah-oh
Chaconne now

Death doesn't concern me
Just me and this scent
A splendid flowery taste
Only party for me

Brighter than the sun
That's just me
Dancing the "Dance of Death"
Drunk with arrogance


Dance for me forever
Look at me in the broken mirror
And tune it with the feet
This beautiful moment I don't stop
Woah, again, chaconne now
Dance for me, like you're drunk and fascinated by me
I just wanna dance on, can't stop it
This is my world in the dark
Woah, again, chaconne now

I love everything beautiful
If this moment is a curse, it won't stop

Dance for me forever
Look at me in the broken mirror
And tune it with the feet
Even in the broken mirror, I shine
Woah, again, chaconne now
Dance for me, like a flower that blooms dead
I just wanna dance on, endlessly
Like a curse, I can't stop myself
Woah, again, chaconne now

Woah-oh, woah-oh, woah-oh
Again chaconne now
Woah-oh, woah-oh, woah-oh
Chaconne now
 
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AmericanMary

AmericanMary

Mage
Apr 30, 2024
598
Probably that new benson Boone song "cryyyy. Cryyy. Go ahead and ruin someone else's life." It's currently the song I'm obsessed with.
 
JKFleck

JKFleck

Betrayed by my only friend, nothing left to lose
Oct 1, 2023
211
My "death theme" when I CTB will be these 3


 
darkenmydoorstep

darkenmydoorstep

Not Waving But Browned Off….
Sep 27, 2023
620
Ever since I heard this, I have always thought it to be the one. The build and then the way the vocals kick in at 02.24 and she says "it's time to go home now"
I just cried.
That said I have a playlist made called 'a long standing longing '
 
saduser88

saduser88

Soon.....
Mar 24, 2024
9


Demolition Lovers by My Chemical Romance

At this time I have no plans to CTB in the foreseeable future. However, if it ever comes to that, this would be the song. It was the song that my ex and I would regularly listen to, when he said that he loved me and wanted to spend his life with me. He ended up leaving me because I was affecting his mental health too much. He has very similar issues to me, and we truly understood each other. For a while I truly wanted to live and I wanted to get better for myself because of how he helped me get through things. When he left, he took away my will to live for myself, and left me with only the desire for revenge against my abusers.

I know that no one is going to be there for me at the time I leave, if I CTB. If there is a next life, I hope that someone loves me in that life. If there is no next life, this world won't miss me.

I love chemical romance.
I love My Chemical Romance
 
Spook97

Spook97

Member
Jun 5, 2023
6
Admittedly, I do find myself quite conflicted in specifics—however, I believe my most confident picks be something by Frank Sinatra or Turner Layton.
 
saduser88

saduser88

Soon.....
Mar 24, 2024
9
Nutshell. Alice n Chains because I've been violated.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,383
I'll probably put this album on. Going out listening to Sleepy Fish sounds great.
 

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