Last few weeks left before CTB were supposed to freeing but i feel the same, empty, depressed and agitated during work.

[gantaigarashi]

I thought that last weeks before CTB would be peaceful and calm, but it's been nothing like that.

I feel the same as I have been, a depressed mess. I thought I would be happy since I could leave this godforsaken planet, but no it's the same.

Infact my manager told me he is going to bless me with more work for the next 2 weeks :)

 

[RedDoor]

Sadly for us, life is always full of disappointments even when it close to ending that's what we get for seeking to be happy

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing truly is so dreadful but anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for, best wishes.

 

[melancholymallory03]

is there anyway , you could just quit?
If it's not safe for you then please don't but maybe it would relieve a bit of the mental stress, and also give you a bit of time to relax/ do some things you may want to do before you kick the

 

[gantaigarashi]

is there anyway , you could just quit?
If it's not safe for you then please don't but maybe it would relieve a bit of the mental stress, and also give you a bit of time to relax/ do some things you may want to do before you kick the

I would love to quit but I'm waiting for my performance bonus which would be about 1.5 times of my monthly salary.

So, I'll get performance bonus and my salary on month end which is a lot of money, and I've also taken a pto of 2 weeks to chill and CTB. I thought this would be a grand plan and I would enjoy spending tons of money on materialistic bs before I CTB but now i don't know, I feel like I just want to end everything now

 

[melancholymallory03]

I would love to quit but I'm waiting for my performance bonus which would be about 1.5 times of my monthly salary.

So, I'll get performance bonus and my salary on month end which is a lot of money, and I've also taken a pto of 2 weeks to chill and CTB. I thought this would be a grand plan and I would enjoy spending tons of money on materialistic bs before I CTB but now i don't know, I feel like I just want to end everything now

This definitely seems complicated , I don't know what the best conclusion would be or course of action but I'm wishing you a peaceful journey towards ctb and I hope you can find clarity in you're thoughts surrounding it ..