as my date approaches, my life has remained the same. i've been thinking about how people always have a grandiose answer to the question "what would you do if you knew it was your last day on earth?"
that is no longer a hypothetical question for me, yet i'm still not doing anything different. yes, continuing to go to work and not blowing all of my money needs to happen to avoid alarming my roommates, but i genuinely haven't done anything special recently, not even the slightest indulgence. i go to work, i eat my regular types of meals, i play video games, i scroll social media, and that's about it.
i guess it's nice to not have any sort of panic about the things i never ended up doing. i'm completely apathetic to that. the end of my life is just simply that, the end. no need for a big send off. i'm not scared, nor am i excited, it's just a thing that's going to happen. in less than 48 hours my heart will stop beating, and that's that.
that is no longer a hypothetical question for me, yet i'm still not doing anything different. yes, continuing to go to work and not blowing all of my money needs to happen to avoid alarming my roommates, but i genuinely haven't done anything special recently, not even the slightest indulgence. i go to work, i eat my regular types of meals, i play video games, i scroll social media, and that's about it.
i guess it's nice to not have any sort of panic about the things i never ended up doing. i'm completely apathetic to that. the end of my life is just simply that, the end. no need for a big send off. i'm not scared, nor am i excited, it's just a thing that's going to happen. in less than 48 hours my heart will stop beating, and that's that.
