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Vlad Tepes

Vlad Tepes

Experienced
Jun 24, 2025
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How do you guys live life knowing your time has come? Im planning on ctb at the end of the month, so recently I guess I've just been doing stuff that I always wanted. Playing video games that Ive always wanted to play, watching movies and shows that Ive always wanted to watch, reading books that Ive had on my reading list for a while, watching youtubers Ive always been meaning to watch, trying foods Ive always wanted to try, etc thats the sort of stuff that I want to spend the rest of this month doing and that I have been doing over the past few days. I'd like my last few weeks on this earth to be nice, I guess. Going out on a high note, as they say. Personally I just have a stoic acceptance of death and so I can't say that I feel any kind of terror or sadness at my impending departure like a lot of other people do. How about you guys? How do you all approach the last few weeks or days on this earth?
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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My situation is more complicated. I want to go. I feel ready to leave life, although an actual attempt massively frightens me still. I don't feel like I can go till my Dad goes first though. Plus, my parents would give me so much shit and likely couldn't support me financially if I stopped working. So, it's more like I need to try and live a high functioning life when I'm absolutely done with this f*cking world. I really only manage it with a great deal of difficulty. Similar to you though, I bribe myself through with nice food and, entertainment.

I'm really not sure about the end times for me. There are certainly places I would like to visit/ revisit but, I don't know that I can be bothered now. I suppose I've started early- trying to watch/ enjoy things I've been meaning to. Sometimes I'm glad I got to see a whole boxset again. I tend to put on Game of Thrones once a year. Nothing is amazing enough to make me grateful I'm alive but, it makes the situation more tolerable at least.

Do you have a bucket list you're ticking off or, are you just taking it whim by whim?
 
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blacksand

blacksand

Specialist
May 2, 2023
380
A very deep feeling of peace.
 
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bia ♡

bia ♡

Yoñlu - Mecânica Celeste Aplicada
Jun 27, 2025
18
I'm feeling happiness and peace
 
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elaineparks

elaineparks

Member
Jul 13, 2025
18
I'm feeling some peace and relief. Acceptance finally. The sadness over it has gone. I'll be leaving very soon and I'm ok with that. I'm eating whatever I want, spending all my money on whatever I feel like. No more worries about being unable to pay my bills, student loans, medical bills. Watching Star Trek Voyager.
 
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