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HNR_

HNR_

Close to a new start...or meet my end
May 21, 2026
195
(Horrible pun, I know)

Might be overcomplicating this but I only have one shot at this, if I don't do it right when I'm able to, I'm fucked six ways to Sunday

I'm trying to project myself to the day when I'll finally be able to CTB and I realized something extremely dumb, I'll have to much time in my hands and it might raise suspicions if I go to the spot where I'll CTB, lay down and wait there for hours, way past the sun has set
I kinda fear that someone notices and calls the cops on me since it'd definitely be suspicious...

Maybe heading straight to the post office once I arrive at the town where I'll CTB to post the letter with my wishes and everything then going to a motel to take a shower before setting an alarm and taking a long nap is the plan?
The issue is that, iirc, motels have set hours where you can't get in or out...anyone has a suggestion as to what the hell I could do to end up in both of those shitty situations?

I feel like I have no other choice but go for the latter, ask at the reception desk when exactly are we not allowed to leave and plan stuff around that, even though I know that I'll have to wait at the spot for a good while anyway
 
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CrawlingInMySkin

CrawlingInMySkin

Blood is Red, and Sweet as Cherry Wine
Jun 14, 2026
225
Could learn an instrument, listen to music, exercise, work out, spend some time with a friend if you've got one (I'm sure they'd appreciate spending one last day with you). Anything, really, mate. Whatever you find fun. Love and peace, mate♥️
 
nayomi

nayomi

only the truth will save us all
Jul 19, 2026
181
i would obsess about the method and read everything possible and practice it every day
 
HNR_

HNR_

Close to a new start...or meet my end
May 21, 2026
195
Could learn an instrument, listen to music, exercise, work out, spend some time with a friend if you've got one (I'm sure they'd appreciate spending one last day with you). Anything, really, mate. Whatever you find fun. Love and peace, mate♥️
Doing anything productive shortly before I CTB sounds pointless though lol
As for the last idea, I need to go to a specific town that's far away from anyone I know, let alone any friends I have
i would obsess about the method and read everything possible and practice it every day
I mean the day where I have to CTB as I want to do it at a time of day where no one's around and I can't exactly practice jumping unless I want to crack open my skull lol
 

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