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this_is_it

this_is_it

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Sep 19, 2023
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i knew this was gonna happen. any time hes home for more than a few hours this happens. i ooened up about being suicidal again, apparently thats me trying to make him feel bad. i dont know why he thinks im such a fucking piece of shit. he says he doesnt but when hes angry he has said so many things that ive heard echoing in my head ever since. i just want to die. whether im an actual pos or just going through intense mental anguish for no reason it doesnt matter anymore i just want it to stop. i just want it to stop. i dont feel like i can live through another day od this shit someone please just make the pain go away
i knew this was gonna happen. any time hes home for more than a few hours this happens. i ooened up about being suicidal again, apparently thats me trying to make him feel bad. i dont know why he thinks im such a fucking piece of shit. he says he doesnt but when hes angry he has said so many things that ive heard echoing in my head ever since. i just want to die. whether im an actual pos or just going through intense mental anguish for no reason it doesnt matter anymore i just want it to stop. i just want it to stop. i dont feel like i can live through another day od this shit someone please just make the pain go away
i csky do this snykore i keed yo di it tknight lleass soksons tell me how
i knew this was gonna happen. any time hes home for more than a few hours this happens. i ooened up about being suicidal again, apparently thats me trying to make him feel bad. i dont know why he thinks im such a fucking piece of shit. he says he doesnt but when hes angry he has said so many things that ive heard echoing in my head ever since. i just want to die. whether im an actual pos or just going through intense mental anguish for no reason it doesnt matter anymore i just want it to stop. i just want it to stop. i dont feel like i can live through another day od this shit someone please just make the pain go away
i csky do this snykore i keed yo di it tknight lleass soksons tell me how
i knew this was gonna happen. any time hes home for more than a few hours this happens. i ooened up about being suicidal again, apparently thats me trying to make him feel bad. i dont know why he thinks im such a fucking piece of shit. he says he doesnt but when hes angry he has said so many things that ive heard echoing in my head ever since. i just want to die. whether im an actual pos or just going through intense mental anguish for no reason it doesnt matter anymore i just want it to stop. i just want it to stop. i dont feel like i can live through another day od this shit someone please just make the pain go away
i csky do this snykore i keed yo di it tknight lleass soksons tell me how
i knew this was gonna happen. any time hes home for more than a few hours this happens. i ooened up about being suicidal again, apparently thats me trying to make him feel bad. i dont know why he thinks im such a fucking piece of shit. he says he doesnt but when hes angry he has said so many things that ive heard echoing in my head ever since. i just want to die. whether im an actual pos or just going through intense mental anguish for no reason it doesnt matter anymore i just want it to stop. i just want it to stop. i dont feel like i can live through another day od this shit someone please just make the pain go away
i csky do this snykore i keed yo di it tknight lleass soksons tell me how
i have 3 trazodone if that can help with anything
i cant stop sobbing i just want to be gone dk badly
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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That must be really awful what you are going through, but anyway I wish you the best, I get that it certainly can be so torturous feeling trapped here, I wish it's much more straightforward to finally leave this existence.
 

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