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OkOkOk

OkOkOk

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Jul 26, 2025
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I'm living in absolute fear.

A guy came up to party for a week. An absolute superstar, ultra successful and brilliant guy.

This guy also used to be my biggest client, he left that company and passed things off to someone else who now manages what he built.

I was not at my best when we hung out. I'm fact, I was at my worst. I had just finished a big 6 month project, set up an office from scratch overseas and was completely lost in pursuit of my goals. A soulless she'll of myself sitting at the finish line figuring out how to realign myself. I've since realigned myself but the damage has been done.

I think I left a bad impression on him, which sucks from the standpoint of respect but doubly sucks because he has great influence over my biggest client that I'm actively trying to grow away from to reduce their leverage over my business.

What kills me is I've sent a few WhatsApp messages that have gone ignored. He's viewed a few of my IG stories but hasn't replied. I know it sounds needy, but to be honest I guess it just is, because he has so much influence over my business the ghosting feels like a knife to my core.

The client, who he regularly talks to hasn't been responsive either.

Sounds probably paranoid but I have a lot on the line. I just spent 6 months setting up this office, so I could operate independently.

I'm here, terrified, I have no one with any real power fighting on my side. If this fails, CTB is my final option. I was almost there before landing this client. Had the SN ready and everything.

I'm trying to grow beyond them but it takes time. I've finally set up the infrastructure we need to grow and am sort of landing deals but it's just not fast enough to feel like I'm in control outside the scope of this clients power over me, especially now that I feel as though I'm not worthy of their respect.

That's about it for the venting for now. Thanks for listening.
 

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