apearl
mitski fan
- Sep 25, 2023
- 194
Psychi prescribed me a medicine that has dxm in it. And I've overdosed on it 3 times now. It's not fun, it consists of me swallowing 20ish pills, getting nauseous, a hour later I'm throwing up bitter vomit till I'm dry heaving, and then about 2 days of fatigue.
And it's not like other types of dxm because of the other active ingredient in the pills that diminishes the "good" part of the high. The only high I get is a little excitement / mostly just vertigo, idek if it's really a high, it's like I lose control of the part of my brain that stops me from being dizzy when you move your head.
The day after I do it (I do it usually mid afternoon) I am slumped in bed and it becomes monumentally harder to do anything, from college work or even just typing on my phone feel like trying to climb Mount Everest.
And even though all that sucks I really want to do it again, I did it the first time as an attempt, I took a bunch of pills and tried to do partial hanging thinking that might work. It didn't, dxm makes u tired as hell and I stopped wanting to die and just wanted to sleep. But since then I've done it more and I want to do it again even though there was genuinely like no positives. I don't think it even has to do with the high for me.
Idk I just feel insane for wanting to do it again but I can't stop thinking about it.
And it's not like other types of dxm because of the other active ingredient in the pills that diminishes the "good" part of the high. The only high I get is a little excitement / mostly just vertigo, idek if it's really a high, it's like I lose control of the part of my brain that stops me from being dizzy when you move your head.
The day after I do it (I do it usually mid afternoon) I am slumped in bed and it becomes monumentally harder to do anything, from college work or even just typing on my phone feel like trying to climb Mount Everest.
And even though all that sucks I really want to do it again, I did it the first time as an attempt, I took a bunch of pills and tried to do partial hanging thinking that might work. It didn't, dxm makes u tired as hell and I stopped wanting to die and just wanted to sleep. But since then I've done it more and I want to do it again even though there was genuinely like no positives. I don't think it even has to do with the high for me.
Idk I just feel insane for wanting to do it again but I can't stop thinking about it.
