Venting Just relapsed with S/H.

[Cicis.Doing.Unwell7]

☆ ──꒰ (𝑪 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒚𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈...)
Yeah, happy that I did it. I have never been calmer - simply didnt manage to skill myself down. And its like clearing my mind. May continue.

Borderline Episodes are so bad…
☆ ── 𝑩𝒚𝒆; 𝑪! ꒱

 

[Reindropz]

Ngl same, I relapsed after two weeks clean and it was the most relaxed I had been the entire time

 

[nyotei_]

my left arm is nervous as I read this post

 

[getoutgirl]

sucks? happy for you? at least i'm glad it helped you calm down... yeah some episodes and urges are awful to push through :(
you decide whether you continue or not, i just hope it passes without u having to turn to it too much, and that u feel better in general regardless <3
i relapsed a week ago too, still debating whether I want to stop and throw the tools away, or keep them. Since I'm still debating, so far the latter is winning. not like i don't get what your are saying here... :(
well, see once your mind is cleared, hugs <3

 

[Kitsuné_]

I was keeping my addictions at bay, almost forgot about everything.

After almost 2 years in bed ive relapsed and now i need something every day to get to the end of the day.

Its nothing serious but i want to be clean

 

[Cicis.Doing.Unwell7]

sucks? happy for you? at least i'm glad it helped you calm down... yeah some episodes and urges are awful to push through :(
you decide whether you continue or not, i just hope it passes without u having to turn to it too much, and that u feel better in general regardless <3
i relapsed a week ago too, still debating whether I want to stop and throw the tools away, or keep them. Since I'm still debating, so far the latter is winning. not like i don't get what your are saying here... :(
well, see once your mind is cleared, hugs <3

Thank u love :((
i know - it helped a lot and wasnt that much… also like, I had bday yesterday so was a bit okay for me. Doing better, thank u for checking <33

I was keeping my addictions at bay, almost forgot about everything.

After almost 2 years in bed ive relapsed and now i need something every day to get to the end of the day.

Its nothing serious but i want to be clean

I understand this sm - there was also a time where I needed this like EVERYDAY so I could survive kinda.

stay Strong <33

 

[MicahBell]

☆ ──꒰ (𝑪 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒚𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈...)
Yeah, happy that I did it. I have never been calmer - simply didnt manage to skill myself down. And its like clearing my mind. May continue.

Borderline Episodes are so bad…
☆ ── 𝑩𝒚𝒆; 𝑪! ꒱

its so frustrating when people villainise self harm. For me its the only thing that calms me down during a panic attack. why do people demonise others for coping in an unhealthy way, not like its a moral failure

 

[Cicis.Doing.Unwell7]

its so frustrating when people villainise self harm. For me its the only thing that calms me down during a panic attack. why do people demonise others for coping in an unhealthy way, not like its a moral failure

I think to some extend this shit can be dangerous. Like I'm really jealous of people who are hitting bones like??? But at the same times, dying of sepsis is not on my to do.

Its coping, thats it - and addiction ofc. :(

I understand you sm with panik attack - you already feel like dying and then having such a strong second opponend helps.