Discussion Just got diabetes at 22, preparing to CTB

[lagoona-a-go-go]

I am getting released from the hospital today after getting diagnosed with early onset diabetes at age 22. I don't want to spend the rest of my life like this and I've been preparing to CTB for a while. I finally bought my SN today and will be at the house it was shipped to in case of any unwanted welfare checks/visits by cops, though I don't think there will be any.

I plan to send my close friend and girlfriend important items such as my doll collection, laptop, and other electronics such as my drawing tablets and gaming stuff, since I assume any will I write won't be considered legally binding, and I would like to know a way to automatically send out a digital copy of my note to the two of them, since the police take physical notes as evidence and services like Gmail can automatically detect suicide notes. I was going to mail copies of them with the packages I send, but I don't know if those could be taken too, as I will be writing in my note that I mailed them my things so my mother doesn't wonder what happened to them. If anyone can help me with that please let me know. Thanks. :)

 

[darkwater]

Of course you can do what you want but is that a good reason, since it is very treatable? For example, my vision is getting worse and no one can find the cause, but it would not have been a good enough reason for me to ctb.

 

[lagoona-a-go-go]

Of course you can do what you want but is that a good reason, since it is very treatable? For example, my vision is getting worse and no one can find the cause, but it would not have been a good enough reason for me to have ctb.

Oh it's not just that. This was just the tipping point. I live with an alcoholic mother, I have several mental illnesses that bring me constant suffering more often than not, and every attempt I've made at trying to make my life better and improve my mental health has ended poorly. I'm just tired of one bad thing after the next happening over and over again for years.

 

[darkwater]

Yes the same for me you think you are at the bottom and then things get worse and worse. It's tempting to never have to deal with it again.

 

[Parting Sorrow]

I got diabetes in my early 30s, I'm in my late 30s now. It's not fun but it often is treatable, metformin has helped me quite a bit. Even if you don't know if you'll last forever, it is something to think about perhaps trying.

 

[deathcallingmyname]

I am getting released from the hospital today after getting diagnosed with early onset diabetes at age 22. I don't want to spend the rest of my life like this and I've been preparing to CTB for a while. I finally bought my SN today and will be at the house it was shipped to in case of any unwanted welfare checks/visits by cops, though I don't think there will be any.

I plan to send my close friend and girlfriend important items such as my doll collection, laptop, and other electronics such as my drawing tablets and gaming stuff, since I assume any will I write won't be considered legally binding, and I would like to know a way to automatically send out a digital copy of my note to the two of them, since the police take physical notes as evidence and services like Gmail can automatically detect suicide notes. I was going to mail copies of them with the packages I send, but I don't know if those could be taken too, as I will be writing in my note that I mailed them my things so my mother doesn't wonder what happened to them. If anyone can help me with that please let me know. Thanks. :)

What does SN mean and where can I get it from?

 

[nessun_nome]

What does SN mean and where can I get it from?

Sodium nitrite. Depends where you are. It needs to be pretty pure for this purpose.