Story Just found out I may have Schizophrenia

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I thought about it and it all came together today.

Right now I believe I'm misdiagnosed with Bipolar. The doctor just threw that diagnosis out there at me and didn't really analyze my situation properly. When I think about it, since I was 22 I was struggling a lot, and it gradually progressed into a full psychotic breakdown that lead me into being admitted at the hospital. I met this guy online who I repeatedly thought was a psychopath and was going to kill me. I was paranoid a lot. Even though we were basically girlfriend/boyfriend. Then I just left him one day because I believed he was a psychopath, and the paranoia stuck around for a bit. Around then I started to have many delusions about the government and white people with blue eyes being a special species of alien out to torture us. Shortly after I converted to christianity. I started to believe that everyone around me was out to get me. I swear I saw their faces as warped demonic faces and concluded they were possessed. I had so many delusions while I was christian. However none of these came with mood changes, my mood was pretty steady. It just got to the point where I was splitting, talking to myself, while this other part of myself I thought was a demon and not me. I thought I ended up possessed and smelt sulphur the night before this "personality" would burst through and talk to me. Eventually I thought it was satan and I was married to the devil. The night the police got called on me I saw and heard things for the first time.

I share this because I really feel like it sucks when doctors don't do a thorough examination of your situation. I didn't have the ability to truly reflect until today, if asked the right questions it would be much more clear to me rather I have bipolar or not. Now I take Lithium and anti-psychotics, but it's the anti psychotics I need not the Lithium.

Having a psychotic illness really sucks, and I don't know if any of you have one, but if you do, what's it like for you? How have you peddled on with it, and is it the reason for your suicidal ideation?

 

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I thought about it and it all came together today.

Right now I believe I'm misdiagnosed with Bipolar. The doctor just threw that diagnosis out there at me and didn't really analyze my situation properly. When I think about it, since I was 22 I was struggling a lot, and it gradually progressed into a full psychotic breakdown that lead me into being admitted at the hospital. I met this guy online who I repeatedly thought was a psychopath and was going to kill me. I was paranoid a lot. Even though we were basically girlfriend/boyfriend. Then I just left him one day because I believed he was a psychopath, and the paranoia stuck around for a bit. Around then I started to have many delusions about the government and white people with blue eyes being a special species of alien out to torture us. Shortly after I converted to christianity. I started to believe that everyone around me was out to get me. I swear I saw their faces as warped demonic faces and concluded they were possessed. I had so many delusions while I was christian. However none of these came with mood changes, my mood was pretty steady. It just got to the point where I was splitting, talking to myself, while this other part of myself I thought was a demon and not me. I thought I ended up possessed and smelt sulphur the night before this "personality" would burst through and talk to me. Eventually I thought it was satan and I was married to the devil. The night the police got called on me I saw and heard things for the first time.

I share this because I really feel like it sucks when doctors don't do a thorough examination of your situation. I didn't have the ability to truly reflect until today, if asked the right questions it would be much more clear to me rather I have bipolar or not. Now I take Lithium and anti-psychotics, but it's the anti psychotics I need not the Lithium.

Having a psychotic illness really sucks, and I don't know if any of you have one, but if you do, what's it like for you? How have you peddled on with it, and is it the reason for your suicidal ideation?

There is also schizoaffective disorder in which you have symptoms of schizophrenia and a mood component. So you may need the lithium too and just didn't have mood issues because of it.

But you definitely sound like either a schizophrenic or schizoaffective person. The good news is with GLP 1 medications that lower weight gain, there are less metabolic issues that happen with incredibly strong antipsychotics.

Some scientists think there is no bipolar II and bipolar I and schizophrenia are on a continuum. Also some scientists think schizophrenia describes symptoms but is actually a collection of many unique brain diseases being lumped together.

22 is often when schizophrenia hits. If you are a schizophrenic, you just likely need higher doses of antipsychotics. You may be happier, or less happy, if taking higher doses.