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BipolarGuy

BipolarGuy

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I've been hoping and praying that my life would sort itself out or that something good would happen.

I'm not saying it has, but at the 11th hour I've just been offered a consulting job to go in and update the accounts for a large company.

Honestly I don't know if I'm in the right headspace to even do it, but Christ my life is a rollercoaster.


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TheQ22

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It never rains...

Could be great news. Do you think you'd be able to manage doing it? If yes that's great.
 
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BipolarGuy

BipolarGuy

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It never rains...

Could be great news. Do you think you'd be able to manage doing it? If yes that's great.
Tell me about it.

I could do it easily.
But as I said in PMs the barrier at the moment is my headspace.
 
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TheQ22

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Maybe take some time to mull it over?
 
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DyingAlf

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Aug 22, 2020
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Congratulations on the job offer.

Now it's time to decide what to do.
Wow the timing is scary!

Apologies if you've answered this before but are/were you on meds? Do meds help your headspace issues at all? If you took the job would you be able to go back on meds/change your meds to help you cope better? (I'm not particularly pro meds but just curious as to whether they could make a difference for you)
 
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BipolarGuy

BipolarGuy

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Congratulations on the job offer.

Now it's time to decide what to do.
Wow the timing is scary!

Apologies if you've answered this before but are/were you on meds? Do meds help your headspace issues at all? If you took the job would you be able to go back on meds/change your meds to help you cope better? (I'm not particularly pro meds but just curious as to whether they could make a difference for you)
Yes the timing is scary.

The guy sent me a message on a Saturday, on the day that I originally planned to end it.

I'm not on medication at the moment, no.
I was on anti-depressants until recently.

Maybe take some time to mull it over?
Perhaps. I'll speak to a few people about it.
 
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Smudgedlines

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Chupacabra 44

Chupacabra 44

If boredom were a CTB method, I would be long gone
Sep 13, 2020
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I say go for it, buddy! Employ the best tactics you have to clear your head space. Go for a jog, watch some futbal, have a pint with your mates, listen to the 9th....reach into your bag of tricks and utilize the strategies that work for you.

I can feel your strength and determination! You've got nothing to lose! Cheering for you!
Yes the timing is scary.

The guy sent me a message on a Saturday, on the day that I originally planned to end it.

I'm not on medication at the moment, no.
I was on anti-depressants until recently.


Perhaps. I'll speak to a few people about it.



I'm actually going out on my road bike today after a four-year and nine-month absence. I don't have my music situated yet as I'm trying to download my iTunes library into my Android and I'm having some difficulties with that. But, I'm going riding today nonetheless. This has always been the best thing for my moods, @BipolarGuy, and I'll limit the length and intensity of my ride to try and keep myself from becoming manic. The downside for me from cycling is it tends to trigger my mania. However now that I'm Mindful and better understand my Mania and have learned I believe all of my triggers I can better self protect.

First, I am, about to load up on some coffee at McDonald's. It's now 5 a.m. and it's opening time at my McDonald's and just like a Pavlov dog I'm out front salivating ready to get inside.

Hopefully you are engaging in whatever works for you to clear your head.

Peace
 
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Sinkinshyp

Sinkinshyp

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Sep 7, 2020
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I say go for it! You've got this. Something amazing happened at just the right timing for you. I say take a couple days, relax, calm your head (I know easier said than done) and get yourself ready to take over this company! Congratulations
 
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WornOutLife

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Good for you, my friend. I would doubt about any job because of my CTB thoughts so, I understand how you feel.
Wish u the best
 
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BitterlyAlive

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May as well try, mate. Congrats by the way :heart:
 
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enuff

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Sep 10, 2020
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That's awesome @BipolarGuy. Good for you! Serendipity has a way of fucking up your plans, but in this case bad is good. Even if this is a temporary turn of events, you get to squeeze life by the balls one more time. Whatever it takes to get in your groove, I wish you good luck and stay strong.
 
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CrazyMary

CrazyMary

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Sep 20, 2020
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You have nothing left to loose, give it a go. If it´s not for you well the other option is always there. But seems things might be changing for u.
 
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Brokensaddle

Brokensaddle

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Sep 28, 2020
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I've been hoping and praying that my life would sort itself out or that something good would happen.

I'm not saying it has, but at the 11th hour I've just been offered a consulting job to go in and update the accounts for a large company.

Honestly I don't know if I'm in the right headspace to even do it, but Christ my life is a rollercoaster.


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congrats I would take some time to decide if you can manage handing a job with your condition. But I sincerely believe the job could be a turning point. Maybe it changes your life and you meet new people and grow. There's still the high likelihood of having bad days but that doesn't mean you won't have good one. Someone believes in your enough to offer you a job I think that's a huge thing because it means they value you.
 
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TheQ22

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That's awesome @BipolarGuy. Good for you! Serendipity has a way of fucking up your plans, but in this case bad is good. Even if this is a temporary turn of events, you get to squeeze life by the balls one more time. Whatever it takes to get in your groove, I wish you good luck and stay strong.
Serendipity - God I fucking love that word.
 
mooncake

mooncake

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Aug 7, 2020
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I've been hoping and praying that my life would sort itself out or that something good would happen.

Take the opportunity then. Especially when you say, you've been hoping for something good to happen. I can imagine how scary this is, to be honest.

If it's worth it to you, why not try it. You can check out at anytime, considering you already have everything you would have needed. YOU are the one who makes the schedule, so you are allowed the change it whenever you please.

Good luck :hug:
 
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Ghost2211

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It sounds like it's worth a try. It looks like a good opportunity, and the bus will be there latter if you want it.

After all the pro lifers likely went to a lot of effort to set this up.
 
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BipolarGuy

BipolarGuy

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Aug 6, 2020
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It sounds like it's worth a try. It looks like a good opportunity, and the bus will be there latter if you want it.

After all the pro lifers likely went to a lot of effort to set this up.
All those bluddy NHS spies, trying to make my life better so it's worth living. How DARE they! :happy:
 
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greebo6

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I've been hoping and praying that my life would sort itself out or that something good would happen.

I'm not saying it has, but at the 11th hour I've just been offered a consulting job to go in and update the accounts for a large company.

Honestly I don't know if I'm in the right headspace to even do it, but Christ my life is a rollercoaster.


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You got nothing to lose by trying it. (You can commit suicide any time)
And congrats !
 
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BipolarGuy

BipolarGuy

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Hmmm, I'm now worried about the fact that as I'm in a bad financial situation, I won't be able to afford travel costs until pay day.
Just thinking about what's involved.
 
mooncake

mooncake

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Aug 7, 2020
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No, unfortunately not.
I don't know how things are where you live, but in Germany, the unemployment office(?) Might grant you some benefits if you lack the funds to start employment. Maybe there's something like that where you are aswell.
 
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BipolarGuy

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I don't know how things are where you live, but in Germany, the unemployment office(?) Might grant you some benefits if you lack the funds to start employment. Maybe there's something like that where you are aswell.
That's a thought! I don't know the answer but I will find out.
 
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Cowtipper

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That message sounds weird. Did he go to prison in the USA or something?
 
BipolarGuy

BipolarGuy

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Aug 6, 2020
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I have sent a message to my contact at the Jobcentre.

I cannot find anything about help back to work online.

Don't cancel the plans just yet.... :aw:
That message sounds weird. Did he go to prison in the USA or something?
I don't know what went on to be honest.
 
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mooncake

mooncake

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I have sent a message to my contact at the Jobcentre.

I cannot find anything about help back to work online.

I'm sure they'll be able to answer your question, once they read it.
 

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