My ailing mother being taken care by my ailing father has become very ill. I am not permitted to travel to visit her and help my father. My cousin just had a baby with only her friends around her and again I'm not permitted to go and help. It's all because I didn't give equal attention to my wife's request of checking out a local gym for her.
I keep failing, I keep falling, I keep fumbling, I suck. I can't earn. I can't provide. I can't be responsible. I can't love. I can't listen. I can't die. I just cannot die, I am not man enough to end it. Waiting and languishing for that glorious day of release. What a worthless piece of shit I am. Oh Death, be kind, be merciful, be quick. Here I am. No one can help but you. I need you. I beg you.
I keep failing, I keep falling, I keep fumbling, I suck. I can't earn. I can't provide. I can't be responsible. I can't love. I can't listen. I can't die. I just cannot die, I am not man enough to end it. Waiting and languishing for that glorious day of release. What a worthless piece of shit I am. Oh Death, be kind, be merciful, be quick. Here I am. No one can help but you. I need you. I beg you.
