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Require_love

Awkwardly social due to spicy grey matter
Apr 20, 2025
81
I've been told that I "don't really want to die" since I'm not dead yet. Fair enough, I want things to change. But..... I read somewhere that people who have ready access to euthanasia, or any other means of "permanent" change, be it death or otherwise, are much less likely to actually commit.

I'm considering buying SN just to test this. Suicidal ideation s are pretty normal to me now, it's frankly random enough to be frightening- I was having a great time till 15 minutes ago and now I wish to be wiped from reality painlessly. Maybe if I had SN on hand, I'd be less miserable?

No offence to the serious CTB people here. I'm truly sorry, if I have offended anyone. I'm a bit lost.
 
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SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
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I believe it can be a great source of comfort just to know that, should you so desire or your circumstances worsen, you have an effective means of exit within your control.
 
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Require_love

Awkwardly social due to spicy grey matter
Apr 20, 2025
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I believe it can be a great source of comfort just to know that, should you so desire or your circumstances worsen, you have an effective means of exit within your control.
That's my theory as well. I just do not wish to feel so miserable. If spending €5 can bring me a jar of SN and a boatload of relief, I suppose I'll do it.
 
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Pale_Rider

Wizard
Apr 21, 2025
677
I can see that. I can remember being a number 9, and ten verse the 6,7 I am today. SI plays a large part I think, but the "prolifers" are always talking crap. If Im not suicidal then remove yourself from my rectum. Thanks.
 
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Carrot

Experienced
Feb 25, 2025
295
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Yeah, knowing that you can CTB fairly easily and relatively peacefully at any moment can give you a certain relief.
 

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Require_love

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I can see that. I can remember being a number 9, and ten verse the 6,7 I am today. SI plays a large part I think, but the "prolifers" are always talking crap. If Im not suicidal then remove yourself from my rectum. Thanks.
What's a number 9,6,7?
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Yeah, knowing that you can CTB fairly easily and relatively peacefully at any moment can give you a certain relief.
I'll buy some SN then. I'm sure it'll be a temporary relief, but we'll cross the bridge by then.
 
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Pale_Rider

Wizard
Apr 21, 2025
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What's a number 9,6,7?

I'll buy some SN then. I'm sure it'll be a temporary relief, but we'll cross the bridge by then.
I forget what its called, but there is a suicide scale in one of these threads somewhere that I reference.
 

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