Venting Just a hopeless vent

[alivefornow]

I wish people would understand I feel crushing pain in my heart and that no medication or therapy works. I am being forced to exist based on the hope others have for me, because I don't have any. Why can't I just be given a lethal injection to die in a dignified way and be freed of this pain? I don't have the guts to do it myself, but I would be grateful if others understood my need for an exit. I just want death. I can't stop thinking about falling from my building or putting a bullet through my head. This is as far as I can go, I can't be happy or at least normal. It's just constant agony. If you came this far, thanks for reading, this forum is the only place I feel there is someone who gets what I'm trying to say.

 

[ipmanwc0]

I feel exactly the same

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be really awful and tiring what you are going through, it's just inhumane to me how assisted suicide isn't legalised, it certainly would be such a relief having the option to cease existing in peace. But anyway I wish you the best, it's certainly understandable just wishing to be free.

 

[Bacon and Baseball]

you are heard

 

[SVEN]

Oh, we get it only too well, I fear.