alivefornow
thinking about it
- Feb 6, 2023
- 166
I wish people would understand I feel crushing pain in my heart and that no medication or therapy works. I am being forced to exist based on the hope others have for me, because I don't have any. Why can't I just be given a lethal injection to die in a dignified way and be freed of this pain? I don't have the guts to do it myself, but I would be grateful if others understood my need for an exit. I just want death. I can't stop thinking about falling from my building or putting a bullet through my head. This is as far as I can go, I can't be happy or at least normal. It's just constant agony. If you came this far, thanks for reading, this forum is the only place I feel there is someone who gets what I'm trying to say.