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Feb 21, 2025
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i plan to get the SN.
and a test kit.

so let's pretend i just tested it, and it was pure.

now i have good quality SN.

and i will do my best to get anti-vomit medicine.
only problem is i heard that the normal sea-sickness medicine works on the wrong side of the brain :I

but let's pretend i do find METO...

i use only SN and meto.


i follow the typical protocol schedule for the pills, and i am doing 12 hour fasting, maybe even more.

NOW COMES THE TIME WHERE I HAVE TO ACTUALLY INGEST THE SN:

i will prepare 3 cups... yes, 3. better safe than sorry. (in case i vomit)

i will use a straw to avoid the bad taste on my tongue.

i am in a hotel room with a big bed.
i might have moved some furniture around, anything that touches the walls,
because i don't want to have a seizure and then my body is hitting the night stand, and my neighbor will hear it.


i will have the TV on to mask any noises i might make (but not loud enough to piss off the neighbors)

i will avoid handling the SN with metal, as i have heard it might cause a reaction.
(wooden spoon better)

and i guess that's it...
I try to stand up for as long as i possibly can, to make sure i don't puke.
eventually i will lay on the bed.

i guess there's not much left to do, besides catching the bus.
But if i had a bath tub in my room, it's very likely i would get in the tub.
so in case the SN doesn't kill me, at least i will drown
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

2036-01-10T08
Apr 10, 2025
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drowning would be painful tho, there is 2nd cup strategy used instead

Also, while the chance of death is kinda high, https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Murphy's_law exists, stating that not everything will always work according to plan.

not sure what else to say, except maybe some emoticons:

^3^ ^w^ *u*
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
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wish you the best :heart:
 
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