Venting I've thought about killing myself, and I might just do it this time.

[venua]

It's all the same fucking thing. I've said it before, no matter who I fill this void within me with, I will never be happy. I wish I could feel happy, true happiness. Not a fake faint feeling that somewhat resembles it. Nothing or nobody can make me feel anything anymore and I hate it. Nothing fazes me, nothing hurts. No matter how many times I say "I love you". How can I say that to somebody when I don't even love myself? I'm so fucking tired man.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It's so awful what you have too go through. This is truly tiring. I send you a *virtual HUG* What ever you decide to do, I wish you all the best and hope you find peace.

 

[Swoop]

I'm so sorry you feel that way, it's rough not loving yourself. I hate myself for being the POS that I am and I can only say I feel for you. May you find eternal peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of suffering here, it's dreadful how people have to suffer in this cruel existence. But anyway best wishes.

 

[Aloneisbestforme]

That is just awful i'm sorry you have to go through this.

Life can be really tiring and empty. it sucks people have to live like this
I wish you the best and hope you can find true peace

 

[peelingbananas]

It's all the same fucking thing. I've said it before, no matter who I fill this void within me with, I will never be happy. I wish I could feel happy, true happiness. Not a fake faint feeling that somewhat resembles it. Nothing or nobody can make me feel anything anymore and I hate it. Nothing fazes me, nothing hurts. No matter how many times I say "I love you". How can I say that to somebody when I don't even love myself? I'm so fucking tired man.

sincerely wish i could give you a hug. is there anything in specific that you feel is pushing you or is it just everything?

 

[venua]

sincerely wish i could give you a hug. is there anything in specific that you feel is pushing you or is it just everything?

everything to be honest. I feel like I can't get anything right. Even now, when one thing is starting to go right for me, i can already feel my terrible anxiety creeping up and starting to ruin it..

 

[peelingbananas]

everything to be honest. I feel like I can't get anything right. Even now, when one thing is starting to go right for me, i can already feel my terrible anxiety creeping up and starting to ruin it..

god that's sounds awful. :(
i wish i could be of more help, but i can offer my attention if you ever need to vent, if that's okay