I've taken a bunch of anti anxiety medicine, the rope is around my neck. No backing out now.

[MariV]

The pills are just to calm me down a bit, the rope is what's gonna yeet me out of existence

oops sorry my brain fog is terrible. i hope from my heart that it all goes well

 

[AJ95]

@Samn77 I hope you find peace

There's also nothing wrong with changing your mind!

If you go through with it then have a fast and painless journey

 

[Samn77]

Well fuck I can't seem to find the cartoid artery, also im like so fucking dizzy. Gonna try again in a bit. Need to figure out the right placement
I'm gonna take a bit of a nap, cuz the pills really fucked me up. I appreciate all of you, it means so much. After i wake up, ill figure out what's going wrong and what needs to be fixed. I'll keep you guys posted if you can bear with me. I'll try again soon, hope you guys stick around, I love you so much, you're the only people that understand. Thank you so much

 

[Silvermorning]

Feeling better after the nap?
Hugs

 

[Mimi79]

Are you ok?

 

[Sk1n1M1n]

I hope you are okay

 

[I screwed up]

Hope u doing better now @Samn77 . remember u don't have to do it unless u r ready for it . take ur time ... We love u

 

[Meditation guide]

I hope you feel better when you wake up.

 

[Cherrypea]

Dw, the sam n thing is an alias. Im sorry for bringing out unpleasant feelings for you.

Im listening to this song called no surprises by Radiohead, it resonates with me a little bit so ya

OK computer is a great album but I think the best Radiohead song is Street spirt, give it a listen x

For anyone who doesn't know it.

 

[Dark Spring]

Do you feel well? If you try again I wish you good luck and a peaceful trip and if you don't we will be here to support you in your decisions. I send you many hugs

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I am hugging you.

 

[Samn77]

I woke up a little while ago, currently looking into what i was doing wrong. Will try again in a few hours. Will keep you posted

 

[Meditation guide]

I woke up a little while ago, currently looking into what i was doing wrong. Will try again in a few hours. Will keep you posted

Hey welcome back! hugs

 

[Ghost2211]

Good to see you again op

 

[Meditation guide]

It's nice to see someone just fall asleep and wake up later and come back.

 

[Samn77]

Holy shit guys, I tried it again and almost passed out. Could feel my vision blurring out. I think I've got a hang of it.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

My little candle burns for you, I hope it's light will bring you love and peace.

 

[Mimi79]

Thinking of you... hope you're in peace wherever you are.

 

[TheGrail]

Dear person
Just make sure you do at least one perfect performance of your life. Anyway there might be solid reasons behind your attempts. I've mine planned too.

 

[Meditation guide]

Holy shit guys, I tried it again and almost passed out. Could feel my vision blurring out. I think I've got a hang of it.

Were you sitting down, standing up? Did the noose tighten around your neck? Was the knot on the back of your neck, side?
Details please.

 

[TripleA]

Holy shit guys, I tried it again and almost passed out. Could feel my vision blurring out. I think I've got a hang of it.

Did you try full or partisl suspension and can you tell us details of your atempt?

 

[Samn77]

Did you try full or partisl suspension and can you tell us details of your atempt?

Sure, I'll try to explain. I'm using partial suspension, the hook or the anchor is nailed down the the wall, it's not too high so it allows me crouch down when i apply pressure. Before i was forcing myself to go forward, so instead of pressuring my cartoid arteries, it was just choking me, today i tried leaning downward just a little bit. When i did that, I started feeling a little dizzy but i could still breathe fine, I'm sure if i had continued for another 10 seconds i would've passed out.

 

[ExistentialError]

I think I've got a hang of it.

Sorry this may not be the best time nor appropriate, but was a pun intended?