Venting I've never told my therapist about how I really feel

[heydude56]

The reason I started going to therapy wasn't exactly because I wanted to get better (it's hard to explain cause there were a lot of factors mixed in so I won't bother to elaborate) and maybe except for the first few sessions, I honestly don't think I've ever been truthful to my therapist (even those first few times I don't think I was entirely telling the truth). I've been telling him for years that I don't feel very depressed or suicidal anymore but the truth is that I've never stopped thinking about ctb.
I wonder if he knows that I'm lying or just doesn't care enough to notice anything lol
I also wonder if therapists actually feel much sadness or guilt when their patients successfully ctb..

 

[Hollowman]

He probably mostly cares about money and you continuing to come back.

 

[Zyntkalla]

He probably mostly cares about money and you continuing to come back.

You are probably right but it is still a good question. I wonder myself.

 

[itsgone2]

Mine definitely cares. Tries to help. But I also downplay my true feelings. I'm not sure how they'd know if we're lying.
Although I am honest with her in that i say that if there was an easy way to ctb I'd definitely do it.

 

[CantTurnBack]

He probably mostly cares about money and you continuing to come back.

While others would like to have you believe medical professionals are evil, I think it's the minority. They likely don't need you to continue coming to fill their schedule, and while results will vary from one therapist to the next I think it's safe to say none of them can read minds. They can't help you if you aren't being honest.

 

[Zyntkalla]

Mine definitely cares. Tries to help. But I also downplay my true feelings. I'm not sure how they'd know if we're lying.
Although I am honest with her in that i say that if there was an easy way to ctb I'd definitely do it.

I think my would care also. She is one of those people. I don't even have to ask I can just tell ut I could be wrong.