Pipsqueak!
hi there.
- Jul 14, 2023
- 74
I don't think I've ever hated anyone more than myself. I hate the way I look, I hate being black, I hate my hair and I hate the things that go through my mind everyday. Even when I am doing things I enjoy those thoughts are always at the back of my mind. Everyday I wonder if I am a bad person, and the truth is, I am. Even if I haven't committed any unspeakable crime, I feel like I should be punished regardless. I guess I'm typing this impulsively because I'm debating whether I should sh relapse.
And even with all that, I feel like when my CTB date does eventually get here I feel like I won't even have the courage to do it. What's wrong with me.
And even with all that, I feel like when my CTB date does eventually get here I feel like I won't even have the courage to do it. What's wrong with me.