CHOSEVIOLENCE
♱ No more counting dollars we'll be counting stars
- Jul 24, 2024
- 32
Hello goobers! If you are reading this then it most likely means that I am no longer among the living. So what does that mean? Cliché goodbyes.
I've never been the sentimental sort, but I still wanted to say that I'm glad to have met and spoken with many of the people that I did here. You all have made me laugh, made me annoyed, and made me question my sanity, and yes, all three of those are meant in a positive way. I've had many mixed feelings about this forum, but the one thing that remained consistent was my pleasant experiences with many of you here. I got to be a bit of a sardonic jerk, and I enjoyed being one, so thank you all for tolerating that despite it all.
I also wanted to apologise to anyone I've hurt here. I've not also been the most helpful or understanding despite trying to. I've navigated most of my life with little comprehension of others and even less desire to understand what makes people tick. It's only lately that I've been learning empathy and how to form lasting relationships, and it's a basic form that needs a lot more work. I'm also a very moralistic person who has formed values, and people with my condition stick very closely to their values, so when someone does something I find objectionable, I feel the need to call it out, or I'll just be letting it happen. I could do the latter, of course, but then I'd feel like I'm suppressing myself to "keep the peace" instead of laying out who I am. Still, I've yapped a lot on here, maybe even too much, so I'm sorry for saying things that hurt others or made them uncomfortable. You have earned the right to call me a bunch of expletives; I won't even complain.
Another thank you to people who have been checking up on me or worried about me. I didn't realise people felt connected to me like that, especially when I've never seen myself as someone worth having more than a shallow relationship with, so it's sobering. I want you all to know that you have been a large part of the reason why I've kept going as long as I have. Getting to talk to you has been a highlight of each day. Some are you are so rediculous it's a wonder why you haven't tried for a career in stand-up.
That being said... Don't feel sad for me; instead, tell a joke for me, make an inappropriately timed pun, have a laugh. The world is already so serious, don't feel the need to add to that at my expense. I promise I won't haunt you if you do! Thank you all once more. I believe God has a plan for all of us and that we'll meet again under better circumstances. Enchanté everyone.
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My favourite song for those curious, this is what I'll be listening to during my final moments:
Farewell.
I've never been the sentimental sort, but I still wanted to say that I'm glad to have met and spoken with many of the people that I did here. You all have made me laugh, made me annoyed, and made me question my sanity, and yes, all three of those are meant in a positive way. I've had many mixed feelings about this forum, but the one thing that remained consistent was my pleasant experiences with many of you here. I got to be a bit of a sardonic jerk, and I enjoyed being one, so thank you all for tolerating that despite it all.
I also wanted to apologise to anyone I've hurt here. I've not also been the most helpful or understanding despite trying to. I've navigated most of my life with little comprehension of others and even less desire to understand what makes people tick. It's only lately that I've been learning empathy and how to form lasting relationships, and it's a basic form that needs a lot more work. I'm also a very moralistic person who has formed values, and people with my condition stick very closely to their values, so when someone does something I find objectionable, I feel the need to call it out, or I'll just be letting it happen. I could do the latter, of course, but then I'd feel like I'm suppressing myself to "keep the peace" instead of laying out who I am. Still, I've yapped a lot on here, maybe even too much, so I'm sorry for saying things that hurt others or made them uncomfortable. You have earned the right to call me a bunch of expletives; I won't even complain.
Another thank you to people who have been checking up on me or worried about me. I didn't realise people felt connected to me like that, especially when I've never seen myself as someone worth having more than a shallow relationship with, so it's sobering. I want you all to know that you have been a large part of the reason why I've kept going as long as I have. Getting to talk to you has been a highlight of each day. Some are you are so rediculous it's a wonder why you haven't tried for a career in stand-up.
That being said... Don't feel sad for me; instead, tell a joke for me, make an inappropriately timed pun, have a laugh. The world is already so serious, don't feel the need to add to that at my expense. I promise I won't haunt you if you do! Thank you all once more. I believe God has a plan for all of us and that we'll meet again under better circumstances. Enchanté everyone.
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My favourite song for those curious, this is what I'll be listening to during my final moments:
Farewell.
