Help I’ve given up completely now!

[Brokensaddle]

Hi everyone I've made the decision I want to ctb. I'm so tired of continuing to fight alone and constantly having to explain myself to everyone. I've spent the last 4/5 months begging my gp to get a mental health referral to a mental health service that I want to go to. My gp been avoiding my phone appointments and when I do make contact he asked me to leave the home I own and let my abusers stay in because I'm younger than them. Also my abusers have been tipped off about my sn and I don't want to fail at home but at the same time I don't want to cause harm or damage to someone business by booking a hotel room. Any suggestive advice would be great.

 

[loneloser]

I've always wanted to do it in deep into a forest so that barely anyone will find my body and it'll all just go back to nature. It wouldn't cause harm to a business (at least I don't think so)

 

[Brokensaddle]

I've always wanted to do it in deep into a forest so that barely anyone will find my body and it'll all just go back to nature. It wouldn't cause harm to a business (at least I don't think so)

I could travel far and do that. My fear is my abusers will call the cops and report me missing but to circumvent that I do have a lawyer to can tell the cops to piss off as it would be violations. I know how to get to national parks and remote area but my second problem would be would I be comfortable sleeping in sleeping bag where it's super cold and potentially very rainy. I used to homeless and I hated sleeping like that

 

[loneloser]

I hope you find peace in the choice you choose.

 

[Brokensaddle]

I hope you find peace in the choice you choose.

Thank you, I have Benzodiazepines and in a practice run. I knocked under a hour after I had them so I'm hoping I won't be in too much discomfort