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burninghill

burninghill

Arcanist
Dec 2, 2025
465
I feel a really really major loss in stability. Me and this person used to speak all the time, every night. He'd tell me exactly what I wanted to hear and it felt like he was the only person really consistently rooting for me.

I woke up today and his account has been deleted, I obviously have no other way to contact him. I just feel, like I said, that I've been knocked over a bit. My stability is off.

I don't have anybody who I talk to about my mental health because most people don't seem to understand or listen, he was the only one who cared to message me and try to understand me. Now I have no one.
 
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Dawnfang

Dawnfang

Fate calls to us all
Dec 21, 2025
105
My condolences, I'm sure this is very discouraging for you. I sincerely hope you can fill that hole, though I know it'll never be the same. Hopefully your friend is doing well or at peace. Take care of yourself, and I hope the future will be kind to you.
 
lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

Слёзы на щеках
Jun 11, 2026
597
I feel a really really major loss in stability. Me and this person used to speak all the time, every night. He'd tell me exactly what I wanted to hear and it felt like he was the only person really consistently rooting for me.

I woke up today and his account has been deleted, I obviously have no other way to contact him. I just feel, like I said, that I've been knocked over a bit. My stability is off.

I don't have anybody who I talk to about my mental health because most people don't seem to understand or listen, he was the only one who cared to message me and try to understand me. Now I have no one.
I relate sm to that. When you talk to a person every day for a long period of time and then suddenly this person is gone, it's painful af. I'm sorry u lost the only person u could confine in
 

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