i cant do this i regret everything

[laurisgonnactb]

yesterday i ruined my relationship, it put my family into a pretty poor financial situation now. i miss him so much. he was the only person who understood me, i have no friends now, i am 100% alone. im planning on CTB very soon, writing my notes and planning. im probably going to do the partial hanging method. i cant do this anymore. i miss him so much. i miss our life together. if i didnt have DID then none of this would have happened, i have been ruined from the start.

 

[PersonBeforeLife]

Ok I get life is shit but slow down. Have you spoken to him?...

I'm suicidal too but after YEARS of failure to improve my life... I feel suicide on impulse is never good especially if you haven't tried to do damage control. I mean you are suicidal... There's a freedom that comes with not being able to make your life any worse so you can be direct and open and not care about the circumstances of showing vulnerability. Use that to try improve your situation by becoming someone else's problem and not caring about doing so.

 

[blisterinthesun]

DID can be really difficult to navigate life with. I'm sorry it's so hard. Have you seen a therapist about it?