I’ve died a long time ago.

[kalashnikova]

I feel like an empty shell just existing and not living, I can't feel anything anymore. I'm self-sabotaging potential commitments, I'm withdrawing from everyone, I'm barely leaving my house. I wonder if anyone ever notices, or if anyone would've ever noticed if I had just disappeared without a trace? This existence means nothing to me and I really should've died a long time ago. I regret staying here and I don't think I can take this shit any much longer.

 

[itwillhappensoon]

I also wish I died a long time ag , my life doesn't have any meaning and I'm glad it will end soon

 

[lookingglassinsect]

I feel the same way. Do you have any hobbies or pets? At least no one would be happy if you disappear.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

Same.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish to be gone, to not exist is all I hope for, I just want to be free from this existence of futile suffering, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[snooperdooper]

I feel like an empty shell just existing and not living, I can't feel anything anymore. I'm self-sabotaging potential commitments, I'm withdrawing from everyone, I'm barely leaving my house. I wonder if anyone ever notices, or if anyone would've ever noticed if I had just disappeared without a trace? This existence means nothing to me and I really should've died a long time ago. I regret staying here and I don't think I can take this shit any much longer.

I feel and act this exact same way. The person I was years ago has completely wilted away and I am what remains. It's like you said, an empty shell, a husk of a person. We don't operate with motivations or interests, we simply exist until we find the tools necessary to cease existing. People notice, they do, I promise you. But they simply do not care enough to put the energy in necessary to help you, or have the critical thinking necessary to view suicide as a viable alternative.