Ive caused so much suffering and harm to the people I've loved most. Since a few years ago, I've been trying to improve myself but still to this day, I hurt people really badly, even to the point of giving them trauma even if I'm not in the picture anymore.
I want to CTB, and although I know it would cause further harm to my family, I feel like it would prevent so much harm I would/willl/have caused to people in the past, present, and future (friends, girlfriends...etc) . I seriously do not want to continue living if I keep hurting the people I love most over and over again even though I want to fix myself and change.
Do any of you guys experience something similar? Or feel the same way?
I want to CTB, and although I know it would cause further harm to my family, I feel like it would prevent so much harm I would/willl/have caused to people in the past, present, and future (friends, girlfriends...etc) . I seriously do not want to continue living if I keep hurting the people I love most over and over again even though I want to fix myself and change.
Do any of you guys experience something similar? Or feel the same way?
