xenny
ich verschwende meine jugend
- May 13, 2024
- 3
I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts since i was 13. i was growing up in an unhealthy environment, with my stepdad constantly abusing me mentally. i turned 20 couple of days ago and i still am suicidal. i sought for psychiatric help last summer but it didn't really help me. it brought me some temporary relief though, as the medications i was taking made me completely numb and indifferent to whatever was going on around me. too bad i can't take them all the time…
there were some periods of peace when thoughts of killing myself didn't even cross my mind, but several years ago i had a relapse. it hits even harder as i was sure i got rid of suicidal tendencies, but now it's happening again.
i wish i could take my life but i'm so scared to hurt my mom and siblings. i know my mom will blame herself for the rest of her life if i do it. mom and my little sister and brother are the only thing that keeps me going
there were some periods of peace when thoughts of killing myself didn't even cross my mind, but several years ago i had a relapse. it hits even harder as i was sure i got rid of suicidal tendencies, but now it's happening again.
i wish i could take my life but i'm so scared to hurt my mom and siblings. i know my mom will blame herself for the rest of her life if i do it. mom and my little sister and brother are the only thing that keeps me going
