It’s just salty water, Fuck it I’m going to drink it. I’m done.

[Maggiemags]

40mins to 4hrs is the time window for death

 

[tvwowacct]

Hopefully the journey went well.

 

[Onelegman]

What he is going through is exactly what nobody wants to go through with SN. It sounds like a very bad experience

I've been through bad situations, but I definitely don't want to go through something like this.

 

[BARIZON]

Supposedly, if all goes well, it takes about 4 hours. When you fall unconscious I doubt you'll notice anything. We only have one way to find out... I have 2 weeks left

I have a feeling this month or next are gonna be pivotal, i'm delaying having to tell my parents i fucked up my college course a second time, im already 28, i dont know if i tell them and see how it goes or simply avoid all the headache and CTB.

I''ll be buying the auxiliary meds next week, i'm reading so many goodbye threads and all i can think of is how much I envy them.

 

[Onelegman]

I''ll be buying the auxiliary meds next week, i'm reading so many goodbye threads and all i can think of is how much I envy them.

Many goodbyes do not end in CTB. I also envy those who don't come back. I have never used chemistry in this way on my body, I hope I don't screw it up

 

[Esokabat]

I have a feeling this month or next are gonna be pivotal, i'm delaying having to tell my parents i fucked up my college course a second time, im already 28, i dont know if i tell them and see how it goes or simply avoid all the headache and CTB.

I''ll be buying the auxiliary meds next week, i'm reading so many goodbye threads and all i can think of is how much I envy them.

It is your choice of course what you do as an adult, but it seems you are looking at a chess board and can only see one next step when in fact there are so many other steps are available. You don't have to go to college. You don't have to tell your parents about your college results. You don't have to live with your parents. You can make your own decisions. You can do a million other things that doesn't involve college. If your parents opinion have such a big impact on you that you would just CTB just for that, you can cutoff communication with your parents and lead your adult independent life. While I am pro-choice, I am still human and with my own opinions, and I just find it absolute ridiculous to CTB for failing a college course. I mean you have to have some narrow vision of life if your college performance will cause life and death decisions. Don't go to college. Don't communicate with your parents. Move out and live your life freely. Find something else to do, college should not be a death sentence. Widen your view, there are a whole big world out there that does not involve neither college, nor your parents.

 

[Artemisia]

It is your choice of course what you do as an adult, but it seems you are looking at a chess board and can only see one next step when in fact there are so many other steps are available. You don't have to go to college. You don't have to tell your parents about your college results. You don't have to live with your parents. You can make your own decisions. You can do a million other things that doesn't involve college. If your parents opinion have such a big impact on you that you would just CTB just for that, you can cutoff communication with your parents and lead your adult independent life. While I am pro-choice, I am still human and with my own opinions, and I just find it absolute ridiculous to CTB for failing a college course. I mean you have to have some narrow vision of life if your college performance will cause life and death decisions. Don't go to college. Don't communicate with your parents. Move out and live your life freely. Find something else to do, college should not be a death sentence. Widen your view, there are a whole big world out there that does not involve neither college, nor your parents.

Easier said than done! I most definitely agree with you on principle, there's a lot more to life than college and parents'@ approval. However, unfortunately, when you're still young and raised in such a way that success in getting a higher degree of education, and then a certain type of life, is the only way to get parents approval, it can be extremely hard to see any other option. Along with that, almost certainly came the indoctrination that if you fail in those things then you're dumb, useless, abnormal and so many other wonderful things. It's hard to maintain a sense of self worth when raised in these conditions. Ask me how I know...

To OP, you have my solidarity. My suggestion, get a job. Any job that allows you to rent a room and pay basic needs. Tell your parents afterwards and keep as much distance as you need until you feel you can stand on your own. Easier said than done too, and when there's depression, anxiety and self worth issues involved it may be extremely difficult. All I'm saying is, if you can, there are other option besides ctb. If you can, try them.

 

[DeathSkullDude1]

if you're no longer here, then rest easy. see you on the other side.

 

[Nikitatos]

50 grams seems like way to much. Even a 500 pound person wouldn't require that much. OP had posted about anti-emetics in the past. Not sure if they used one.

Hopefully, the pain is all over.

 

[riktfar]

As above, I'm off, bye guys

Apparently Also needs sleeping pills

 

[divinemistress36]

Rip

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I think OP is no longer with us, RIP

 

[Unknown21]

I admire your courage, rest in peace dear.

 

[albstr1403]

I don't even know you but something about your energy seemed familiar like an old friend. Idk how or why I felt that way when I read your post but

I hope you are reading my post from your comfy resting place.
Even though it was a fucking stupid thing to do you had balls to down twice the recommended dose. I hope the journey wasn't too horrible for you. I wish I had your courage. Maybe we can talk when I'm there too.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Hope you've found your peace, OP.

 

[rozeske]

I hope you've found your peace 🕊

 

[AliceTheGoon]

Even though it was a fucking stupid thing to do you had balls to down twice the recommended dose.

Yeah it's like he made the experience worse than it needed to be. But he did it and once again I am humbled and inspired. I just visited my SN stash, felt clumpy so I shook it up a bit.

 

[darkythoughts876]

As above, I'm off, bye guys

Wait, wait, wait, elaborate: can you actually die from drinking salty water? It's THAT easy!?

 

[SVEN]

Wait, wait, wait, elaborate: can you actually die from drinking salty water? It's THAT easy!?

I believe the OP was just telling himself that drinking the SN would be just be like drinking saline solution.
For clarity, no, ctb is not as simple as knocking back "salty water".
Sleep well OP. Rest easy.

 

[DeIetedUser4739]

Being conscious for at least 21 minutes after ingestion doesn't sound too good, it looks like they might have vomited immediately after ingestion which could theoretically have removed 45g of SN leaving only 5g which is still lethal but possibly prolonged the time it takes to pass out.

 

[darkythoughts876]

I believe the OP was just telling himself that drinking the SN would be just be like drinking saline solution.
For clarity, no, ctb is not as simple as knocking back "salty water".
Sleep well OP. Rest easy.

But the comments imply that op died from salty water, so surely i can simply put a shitton of salt onto water and drink it until i die?

 

[cowboypants]

With 50g I suppose the reaction he has had is normal. I hope something like this doesn't happen to me...

I think with antiemetics one should be fine but must be harrowing when you are ctbing when vomiting itself feels like dying

 

[fleetingnight]

I feel awful for OP. I'm really grateful for him documenting his experience, but I really wish it had been less painful.

I hope it worked out, and he's resting now, at least

 

[LunarLight]

But the comments imply that op died from salty water, so surely i can simply put a shitton of salt onto water and drink it until i die?

No, you need SN, not salt.

 

[Coconut blue]

are you still with us op? i hope you've found peace

 

[Onelegman]

I guess he did it... rest in peace

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you've found peace.

RIP

 

[BARIZON]

It is I mean you have to have some narrow vision of life if your college performance will cause life and death decisions.

The main reason is i have general anxiety which kind of have a huge impact com everything else. Finding a job, maintaning a job, hhaving a good relationship, dealing with life responsabilities and so on. My parents think im going to graduate this year, its exactly what happened the first time, its not like this is the only problem i have, but its kind of the culmination of all the problems. If everything else were ok, then i wouldnt be thinking about ctb because of college.
I appreciate your concern, im definetely not set on ctb, but you like to keep it as an avaiable option.

I can only enjoy life when I'm able to ignore my responsabilities, that's when im at peace, but pf course its not a way sustainable way to live.

 

[Esokabat]

But the comments imply that op died from salty water, so surely i can simply put a shitton of salt onto water and drink it until i die?

Perhaps you have some mental disability so I will try to answer patiently. As others confirmed to both of your questions, you cannot die from salty water and OP was referring to SN. Regardless how many more times you ask, the answer is the same.

 

[Hahem]

Rip