Venting it's just one thing after another, isn't it?

[sobsob]

the desire to end it has been so heavy on my mind for such a long while at this point. and it's not going to get better. everything that's giving me grief right now is just stuff that will always be there in my life.
my living situation is horrible right now. I'm trying to move, but the landlord at the new place won't communicate and told me yesterday that my move-in date might need to be pushed back. I've been having health issues and I got results yesterday that indicated I might have PCOS???? so that's something I will have to deal with literally forever. my academics are falling apart, my social life, I spend so much time just rotting in bed when I could be trying to improve those aspects. i get high like way too often.
i have so much shit to deal with and I am on my own. i have to figure it all out by myself. but that's just life! that is just how my life will be until the day I die! so I would like to die now, if possible!
and what happens when I can't even use my parents' health insurance anymore (which is really the only benefit I get from them)? how will I get the money to treat the myriad of diseases and disorders I seem to have accumulated? everything is so messed up.

 

[tbh2023]

the desire to end it has been so heavy on my mind for such a long while at this point. and it's not going to get better. everything that's giving me grief right now is just stuff that will always be there in my life.
my living situation is horrible right now. I'm trying to move, but the landlord at the new place won't communicate and told me yesterday that my move-in date might need to be pushed back. I've been having health issues and I got results yesterday that indicated I might have PCOS???? so that's something I will have to deal with literally forever. my academics are falling apart, my social life, I spend so much time just rotting in bed when I could be trying to improve those aspects. i get high like way too often.
i have so much shit to deal with and I am on my own. i have to figure it all out by myself. but that's just life! that is just how my life will be until the day I die! so I would like to die now, if possible!
and what happens when I can't even use my parents' health insurance anymore (which is really the only benefit I get from them)? how will I get the money to treat the myriad of diseases and disorders I seem to have accumulated? everything is so messed up.

Did you try social services for assistance. Sounds like you can't work. In America disable people gets monthly income and other services if they determine qualified.