It's going to be this weekend

[esse_est_percipi]

please lets not turn my thread into a discussion about reincarnation. There are plenty of other threads for that crap.....which is ironic really.

lol I just read this after writing a response about...reincarnation.
I'll delete if you want.

 

[BipolarGuy]

Maybe reincarnation isn't about mysterious soul units floating about waiting for a new body to enter.

Maybe it's more about a kind of generic consciousness/subjective awareness which persists and is a fundamental feature of objective reality, and finds subjective 'outlets' in brains. Consciousness could be a continuous and analog phenomenon at bottom, not discrete or partitioned. The partitioning would only come into effect when organisms become complex enough to receive it, like a radio receiving electromagnetic waves and converting them into sound.

When you think about it, there are no felt 'gaps' during life, since even during sleep and anesthesia, the actual experience is a kind of jump from an earlier point in time to a later point in time. You weren't experiencing the nothingness of the time interval.

Since experience of nothingness at death is impossible, or at least incoherent (since nothingness cannot be experienced), it isn't obviously nonsensical to suppose that our subjective consciousness will get transferred via a sort of jump to another being which is coming into existence at the same time as we die.
Because this new being will have a completely different brain and genome, all our old memories and experiences will be gone, but the subjective awareness would continue uninterrupted.

This could be compatible with a naturalistic view of the universe, since all it requires is that subjective awareness is in some sense an objective feature of a universe. And there need be nothing obviously immaterial or religious about subjective awareness. Even it turns out to be a sub-quantum mechanical phenomenon which requires a new psychophysical paradigm, it would still fit into a universe which obeys physical laws and operates in a rationally comprehensible way.

I'm not saying I believe this, just putting it forward as an interesting idea to consider.

There was an influential essay written about it, by tom Clark: https://www.naturalism.org/philosophy/death/death-nothingness-and-subjectivity

Hey,

Please lets not make this thread about that :/

 

[esse_est_percipi]

Hey,

Please lets not make this thread about that :/

Sorry, I wasn't thinking.

 

[BipolarGuy]

Sorry, I wasn't thinking.

It's OK.....I'm sure the discussion about reincarnation will come again....

 

[Brokensaddle]

I don't hate them. I just feel like they're reading a script, and can't really do much to help.
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It's definitely going to be this weekend coming. I've decided.

I'm at the end, guys. I have a few days left. I'm done.

I'm sad, frustrated and bitter that things have come to this and I'm anxious about what I'll feel and how it will play out.
But I'm also relieved. God this is finally going to be over and I'll have peace.

I'm sat here with tears in my eyes.

I know this seems like nothing more than words on a page, and after you've seen this sort of thing a few times perhaps you get used to it.
But my universe is coming to an end this weekend.

I cannot afford to pay for a funeral, so no need to do that.
The only thing I need a will for is to state formally that IF I do end up having some kind of funeral or burial service that I don't want my family there. My will was delivered today and I'll write it up tomorrow.
Tomorrow I'll also start to clean my place up.
I'll then have a day or two before the weekend arrives.

Weird to think that this time next week I'll no longer be here.


I will upload a goodbye thread when it comes, but I'm just tagging a few people that might be interested to know about this, as frankly I don't have the energy to send out individual PM's:

@TheQ22
@BitterlyAlive
@checkouttime
@Chupacabra 44
@Deafsn0w
@Drowning fish
@GoneGoneGone
@mahakali88
@Maxtothemax
@Mm80
@Passerby
@Raven Moon
@RoseyBird
@Underscore
@User Does Not Exist
@_Minsk
@Sinkinshyp

I have only been here a week and I found you to be one of the funniest members. Your post also draw my attention whether in making me laugh or just giving me to new information to think. You might be feel you never mattered but I know loads of people on here will miss. Take care and I wish you well for the other side and most importantly I hope you find the peace you didn't find before

 

[Pharmaruined]

You offered to pay for treatment? Sorry, have we spoken before?

Yea, last week when u got your package, u posted a pic.

I sent u a pm.. and apologized for saying in the thread that u deserve to find peace, but i didn't word it 100 percent proper and could be interpreted like "u deserve to die" , and we kinda laughed about it..and u said u knew i didn't mean that..

Then I said, look at this , it was a very promising treatment for bipolar,

I shared that I had been doing it for 3 years and it's cured all my ailments except for my libido..but my gut, chronic fatigue, joint pain is basically healed.. it was on mineral balancing

and then i offered to help pay for the test and the supps if u wanted to give it a shot. It's not that expensive,

U said u would check it out.. and I said take all the time u need.. research the heck out of it and let me know..

When I sent that last pm. I thought u remembered me

 

[BipolarGuy]

Yea, last week when u got your package, u posted a pic.

I sent u a pm.. and apologized for saying in the thread that u deserve to find peace, but i didn't word it 100 percent proper and could be interpreted like "u deserve to die" , and we kinda laughed about it..and u said u knew i didn't mean that..

Then I said, look at this , it was a very promising treatment for bipolar,

I shared that I had been doing it for 3 years and it's cured all my ailments except for my libido..but my gut, chronic fatigue, joint pain is basically healed.. it was on mineral balancing

and then i offered to help pay for the test and the supps if u wanted to give it a shot. It's not that expensive,

U said u would check it out.. and I said take all the time u need.. research the heck out of it and let me know..

When I sent that last pm. I thought u remembered me

OK now you've described it I do remember. Sorry, I'm struggling with time management at the moment and everything is a blur.

 

[Pharmaruined]

OK now you've described it I do remember. Sorry, I'm struggling with time management at the moment and everything is a blur.

No problem buddy.. I know you're going through alot.. I'm here for whatever u need..

 

[BipolarGuy]

No problem buddy.. I know you're going through alot.. I'm here for whatever u need..

Thank you for being supportive.

I did find that stuff about reincarnation, and the link you sent to me about past life contracts very odd.
However, I know you're trying to be supportive.

 

[Pharmaruined]

Thank you for being supportive.

I did find that stuff about reincarnation, and the link you sent to me about past life contracts very odd.
However, I know you're trying to be supportive.

Yea, it' doesn't fit with everyone's belief structure, and i wasnt really thinking about that when I sent it .

I did afterwards. And knew I was probably out of line.. but u can't unring a bell.. . haha

 

[cyberlordsumit]

Haha.. it's not about money .. it's just declaring that you're a free spirit just in case there such a thing as reincarnation, and some entity tries to convince you to start over with another life . Out if guilt or whatever..

When I posted you were crying etc.. I felt like maybe it wasn't going to be so peaceful or they may be something lingering.. so I sent that link.. it has absolutely nothing to do with money.. it's just a guide on how to exit the matrix.. free info.


I think theres so much deception in life.. chances are it's in death too.. that's all.. was just a suggestion to read some words from the link I posted , proclaiming your freedom.. .

I happen to believe I've been reincarnated and it's real.. I also feel like it was a trick to be born into a world full of suffering.. for zero benefit.. anyway it was just a suggestion.. .
And jlfor the reco


And for the record. We spoke last week and I offered to pay for treatment if u wanted to change your mind..and keep trying

so it really sux u think I'm coming from a bad place

can you share the link with me?? it really sounds interesting...
If what you say is the truth, i salute you for trying to offer someone a chance at recovery with financial support.

 

[Pharmaruined]

can you share the link with me?? it really sounds interesting...
If what you say is the truth, i salute you for trying to offer someone a chance at recovery with financial support.

Sure.. I think it was this one..

http://www.naturalhealthprotocol.com/how-nutrition-affects-emotions--behavior.html

I've been mineral balancing for 3 years now.. when I started, I couldn't walk, now I can go full hard mode in the gym.. no fatigue.. building muscle again..
My gut was a mess, diarrhea after every meal.. chronic fatigue.. totally bedbound.. brain fog, memory issues..

Mineral balancing has totally turned me around , unfortunately my hormones are still screwed from the dht blocker I was on for years.. my libido is weak and it takes me a week or so to recover from an orgasm and want sex again.. it makes me miserable because I want to be in a relationship but can't accept not being virulent or aroused like I used to be..

but aside from that, I'm healed in every other way.. mineral balancing is basically like fine tuning a car.. if the air to gas ratio is wrong the car will run like shit.. there are 12 core minerals and they need to be in the right ratio in order to run optimally.. they figure this out by periodic hair testing and the give u formulations to tweak the ratios.. it takes a little time.. but if u take vitamins and minerals u might as well take what your hair is telling you that u need..
The lab is " ARL labs", u can Google them

and u have to go thru a licensed practitioner to get on the program. There are hundreds, if not thousands of licensed practitioners , the one I use used to be epileptic.. she had the seizures regularly.. I think she started when she was 50ish.. they found very high copper toxicity in her hair test.. very common..

after 3 years or so she was balanced , the excess copper was removed by her own body and the seizures stopped..
She still mineral balances of course..but she may test once a year if that, just to keep it that way..

Anyway, like I said, there are several practitioners although some have tweaked the program with lots of fasting and sauna as well as the vit/min supplements.. some say it's not as effective.. idk.. but most follow the original protocol ..

u would have to check with whoever u go with.. or I can give u my lady.. Im not affiliated or get paid anything.. I'm just sharing..

Edit: Probably best if u find your own practitioner.. arl gives a list.. just in case word got out I'm on this forum.. don't need to advertise that..

 

[DyingAlf]

Sure.. I think it was this one..

http://www.naturalhealthprotocol.com/how-nutrition-affects-emotions--behavior.html

I've been mineral balancing for 3 years now.. when I started, I couldn't walk, now I can go full hard mode in the gym.. no fatigue.. building muscle again..
My gut was a mess, diarrhea after every meal.. chronic fatigue.. totally bedbound.. brain fog, memory issues..

Mineral balancing has totally turned me around , unfortunately my hormones are still screwed from the dht blocker I was on for years.. my libido is weak and it takes me a week or so to recover from an orgasm and want sex again.. it makes me miserable because I want to be in a relationship but can't accept not being virulent or aroused like I used to be..

but aside from that, I'm healed in every other way.. mineral balancing is basically like fine tuning a car.. if the air to gas ratio is wrong the car will run like shit.. there are 12 core minerals and they need to be in the right ratio in order to run optimally.. they figure this out by periodic hair testing and the give u formulations to tweak the ratios.. it takes a little time.. but if u take vitamins and minerals u might as well take what your hair is telling you that u need..
The lab is " ARL labs", u can Google them

and u have to go thru a licensed practitioner to get on the program. There are hundreds, if not thousands of licensed practitioners , the one I use used to be epileptic.. she had the seizures regularly.. I think she started when she was 50ish.. they found very high copper toxicity in her hair test.. very common..

after 3 years or so she was balanced , the excess copper was removed by her own body and the seizures stopped..
She still mineral balances of course..but she may test once a year if that, just to keep it that way..

Anyway, like I said, there are several practitioners although some have tweaked the program with lots of fasting and sauna as well as the vit/min supplements.. some say it's not as effective.. idk.. but most follow the original protocol ..

u would have to check with whoever u go with.. or I can give u my lady.. Im not affiliated or get paid anything.. I'm just sharing..

Edit: Probably best if u find your own practitioner.. arl gives a list.. just in case word got out I'm on this forum.. don't need to advertise that..

If you want to share stuff like this please start your own thread (or you could have sent a PM to CLS since they specifically asked for it). It's not ok to take over someone else's thread like this.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

If you want to share stuff like this please start your own thread (or you could have sent a PM to CLS since they specifically asked for it). It's not ok to take over someone else's thread like this.

Yes, especially a semi-goodbye thread.

 

[BipolarGuy]

Sure.. I think it was this one..

http://www.naturalhealthprotocol.com/how-nutrition-affects-emotions--behavior.html

I've been mineral balancing for 3 years now.. when I started, I couldn't walk, now I can go full hard mode in the gym.. no fatigue.. building muscle again..
My gut was a mess, diarrhea after every meal.. chronic fatigue.. totally bedbound.. brain fog, memory issues..

Mineral balancing has totally turned me around , unfortunately my hormones are still screwed from the dht blocker I was on for years.. my libido is weak and it takes me a week or so to recover from an orgasm and want sex again.. it makes me miserable because I want to be in a relationship but can't accept not being virulent or aroused like I used to be..

but aside from that, I'm healed in every other way.. mineral balancing is basically like fine tuning a car.. if the air to gas ratio is wrong the car will run like shit.. there are 12 core minerals and they need to be in the right ratio in order to run optimally.. they figure this out by periodic hair testing and the give u formulations to tweak the ratios.. it takes a little time.. but if u take vitamins and minerals u might as well take what your hair is telling you that u need..
The lab is " ARL labs", u can Google them

and u have to go thru a licensed practitioner to get on the program. There are hundreds, if not thousands of licensed practitioners , the one I use used to be epileptic.. she had the seizures regularly.. I think she started when she was 50ish.. they found very high copper toxicity in her hair test.. very common..

after 3 years or so she was balanced , the excess copper was removed by her own body and the seizures stopped..
She still mineral balances of course..but she may test once a year if that, just to keep it that way..

Anyway, like I said, there are several practitioners although some have tweaked the program with lots of fasting and sauna as well as the vit/min supplements.. some say it's not as effective.. idk.. but most follow the original protocol ..

u would have to check with whoever u go with.. or I can give u my lady.. Im not affiliated or get paid anything.. I'm just sharing..

Edit: Probably best if u find your own practitioner.. arl gives a list.. just in case word got out I'm on this forum.. don't need to advertise that..

This isn't the link that you sent to me.

You sent me howtoexitthematrix.com

But yes, let's not make this thread about this BS please.

 

[ghostspace]

hey bipolar guy, I'm so used to seeing your clever and funny posts here and your absence will absolutely be felt. I didn't have the privilege of knowing you well but I've enjoyed interacting with you and reading your thoughts and opinions. You've made a difference here on SS and I'm grateful to have been here at the same time as you.

I hope that you're able to get some closure and comfort and that your journey's end is a peaceful bus ride home.

 

[Pharmaruined]

This isn't the link that you sent to me.

You sent me howtoexitthematrix.com

But yes, let's not make this thread about this BS please.

Yes, should have pmed him after he asked, also thought he was asking about the other .. anyway, sorry man.. I wish u well.

 

[BipolarGuy]

Update:

I only made a decision to do it this weekend either yesterday or the day before.

Getting everything sorted out is taking longer than expected.

The will is written but apparently I need people to sign it - I may bother with this, I may not.

But clearing my place out is taking a while.
I could get it done if I worked flat out tonight and tomorrow, but then it would be a rush to go ahead on Saturday.
I could do it on Sunday, but that would still feel a bit of a rush as I'd like at least one day to myself with nothing to organise or sort out, just to get my head in the 'right place' (yes, I see the irony...).

So I'm going to postpone it until either Monday or Tuesday.

I know I postponed the date and everything, but it was originally going to be tonight.

I don't think I would have sat there in my room at the hotel for hours and hours without doing anything, so I probably would have taken it by now if my original plan went ahead.
I don't know how long it takes to work, but even if it's up to an hour, I could have been dead by now if I went ahead.
Strange feeling.

 

[rt1989526]

I know I postponed the date and everything, but it was originally going to be tonight.

I don't think I would have sat there in my room at the hotel for hours and hours without doing anything, so I probably would have taken it by now if my original plan went ahead.
I don't know how long it takes to work, but even if it's up to an hour, I could have been dead by now if I went ahead.
Strange feeling.

What is your plan now friend?

 

[BipolarGuy]

What is your plan now friend?

Well having been offered that job today (see my other thread about that), I'm not sure.
Being offered the job (and a good one at that) has stopped me in my tracks. I'm in a state of shock.
I was so sure I was going to die this week.

It's either a blessing.....or one last kick in the teeth.

 

[Niirvana]

Its the SI really?

 

[Ghost2211]

Well having been offered that job today (see my other thread about that), I'm not sure.
Being offered the job (and a good one at that) has stopped me in my tracks. I'm in a state of shock.
I was so sure I was going to die this week.

It's either a blessing.....or one last kick in the teeth.

That is some crazy timing.

 

[TheQ22]

It's either a blessing.....or one last kick in the teeth.

I love your sense of optimism - you sound just like me.

 

[BipolarGuy]

Its the SI really?

It's not just survival instinct, as if that's something I need to overcome.
It's hope that has presented itself:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/just-been-offered-a-job.49942/

 

[TheQ22]

Its the SI really?

Depends on your reason for going doesn't it? For me it;s financial - if I'd won the lottery tonight I''d be staying. But I didn't - so I'll be going.

If BPG feels like it's financial / lack of job etc and suddenly he's got one, then that's a good reason to stay.

 

[esann7]

Great, then we will probably be able to continue discussing on the bus. Mine is leaving on Sunday evening.

How are you planning to do it? I'm trying to set a deadline as well

 

[BipolarGuy]

To celebrate just how well my life is going.........please could anybody who considers me a 'buddy' on here join me for a celebration on this coming Friday late afternoon/early evening (UK time) (2 days from now) here on SS.
I am currently unable to offer a more specific time.

Please bring headphones as I'd like to share a piece of music.

If you need to check the time difference between where you are and the UK, just go to Google and type in 'UK time'

I'll post a thread at roughly the time of day I mentioned (this coming Friday late afternoon/early evening), and I'd really appreciate it if you would join me.

This is not only aimed at the following individuals:

@Astronomer
@BitterlyAlive
@Chupacabra 44
@coeur.brisé
@Deafsn0w
@Drowning fish
@GoneGoneGone
@Lilacmoon
@mahakali88
@Maxtothemax
@Mm80
@Raven Moon
@RoseyBird
@Sinkinshyp
@TheQ22
@Underscore
@_Minsk
@checkouttime
@Cherrypea
@ropebunny
@worried_to_death

 

[Ghost2211]

Sure! You're about 8 hours ahead of me, so I can be here since little wake me at 6:30am regardless of the day.

 

[Sinkinshyp]

just let me know what time and I'll be here.

 

[Lilacmoon]

I hope I can make time for it, I'll try my best to attend!