It's been decided: suicide by sea

[Lucilius]

In light of the clear fact that my life is fucked up beyond repair (from being trans, mainly) I have come to the resolution that I need to go. Here is how I am going to do it.

I am going to buy an inflatable raft and after an afternoon at the beach on a clear night with a calm sea (say starting at 2-3 am) I am going to venture into the waters. After rowing for as much as I have energy for I am going to wait until the sun rises, try to enjoy the view for a few minutes and then puncture the boat. Nobody will know I am doing this. Heck, nobody is going to start suspecting anything in at least a week or two. The chances of rescue are essentially zero and the chances of rescue at precisely the right moment to result in a life with brain damage even more so.

I don't know exactly when I am going to do this. But it has to be done. The alternative is to continue living this nightmare for another few decades.

 

[Vivacious_Vee]

Hi, for me, I was going to do kind of the same. Thought of taking hounds to a friends, or have hounds having a groom, then drive to a beach I know very well, take some sleepers, and just swim over the river Severn, thought of waiting before I start swimming to make sure meds deffo kick in, then thought no cant do, as have a close family member who sails and that would just be a horrible memory to leave them with. Wrong in to many ways. If that makes sense. x
I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Wants-To-End]

In light of the clear fact that my life is fucked up beyond repair (from being trans, mainly) I have come to the resolution that I need to go. Here is how I am going to do it.

I am going to buy an inflatable raft and after an afternoon at the beach on a clear night with a calm sea (say starting at 2-3 am) I am going to venture into the waters. After rowing for as much as I have energy for I am going to wait until the sun rises, try to enjoy the view for a few minutes and then puncture the boat. Nobody will know I am doing this. Heck, nobody is going to start suspecting anything in at least a week or two. The chances of rescue are essentially zero and the chances of rescue at precisely the right moment to result in a life with brain damage even more so.

I don't know exactly when I am going to do this. But it has to be done. The alternative is to continue living this nightmare for another few decades.

I am so sorry for u

Even i am a Trans , decided to end my life for same reason (I always Wonder, how unlucky we are? , It is not our fault but mercilessly gone through huge sufferings simply for no reason and finally ended-up here)

I have really no problem in your way of suicide, but still "getting in to middle of a ocean, enjoying a view and then drowning there" sounds easy, but in reality you would really get scared once got in to the middle of ocean, surrounded by mysterious water, there is high possibility you will come back or death could be emotionally brutal

You could try some other alternatives, "SN method" is very popular here and I heard about Something called "CO – Charcoal Method" sounds cost effective & peaceful method, but i don't exactly knew about it -------------- Even I am New here

 

[Lucilius]

You could try some other alternatives, "SN method" is very popular here and I heard about Something called "CO – Charcoal Method" sounds cost effective & peaceful method, but i don't exactly knew about it -------------- Even I am New here

Emotionally brutal? Staying alive is emotionally brutal.

I have seen several people here take SN and then agonize for a night unable to lift their bodies to call an ambulance only to in the ens survive and often be met with all manner of mockery and criticism for reporting their story. I do not trust SN nor rule out that its popularity may be the result of a sophisticated marketing campaign by shady surplus food industry chemical resellers. I'd rather finance good old sports gear manufacturing with my death than some creepy dealer.

Also, all those things are really complex to execute and I have been a bit low on concentration and motivation recently, you know.

as have a close family member who sails and that would just be a horrible memory to leave them with. Wrong in to many ways. If that makes sense. x
I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

That's very noble. I was a good kid too, you know? I had a lot of good intentions and noble goals. Then I ended up like this. Good for nothing and nobody. A mockery of what I could have been. Disgusting.

 

[angel31]

Preferred Methods are different for everyone I believe. For some partial hanging might be the way, for some SN, for others jumping. This method would be taking way to long for me and I dont think I would be able to go so long without SI kicking in. But if it works for you im happy for you <3

 

[90starve]

i admire your courage for choosing this method - i certainly think SI would kick in more than you might imagine.

do you have access benzos, or something similar, to make the experience of drowning at sea more peaceful? SI is less likely to hinder your plans while sedated.

or have you considered the shallow water blackout method? you can still raft out to sea and enjoy the sunrise - when you're ready, you can hyperventilate and fall into sea without needing to puncture the raft.

i just feel like puncturing your raft, and leaving yourself with no other option than to struggle in the water will be a very unpleasant and scary way to pass :(

but please forgive me if im misunderstanding your method! <3

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans, I hope that you eventually find freedom from this hellish reality.

 

[SpiderLink]

In light of the clear fact that my life is fucked up beyond repair (from being trans, mainly) I have come to the resolution that I need to go. Here is how I am going to do it.

I am going to buy an inflatable raft and after an afternoon at the beach on a clear night with a calm sea (say starting at 2-3 am) I am going to venture into the waters. After rowing for as much as I have energy for I am going to wait until the sun rises, try to enjoy the view for a few minutes and then puncture the boat. Nobody will know I am doing this. Heck, nobody is going to start suspecting anything in at least a week or two. The chances of rescue are essentially zero and the chances of rescue at precisely the right moment to result in a life with brain damage even more so.

I don't know exactly when I am going to do this. But it has to be done. The alternative is to continue living this nightmare for another few decades.

Have you transitioned if u don't mind me asking?

But I'm sorry the world can be like this, but know not everyone is! I'm non binary myself, it hurts when being mis gendered but most of the time I'm too scared to correct people. People need to be more empathetic and not force their beliefs onto people, after all.. this is our lives, we have control over it, but others like to throw their tidbits of information, that's unnecessary. I just hope one day, the world will be more empathetic and let people live their lives.

 

[Lucilius]

Have you transitioned if u don't mind me asking?

I take hrt, but I can't transition. Too late.

Wow! That's an amazing way to transition. Will you tie a weight on you so you sink?

Are you being sarcastic?

Carrying a weight might make getting relatively far into the sea more difficult. Why make things complicated?

 

[stoiccactus]

Thats a cool way to go, I gotta say. Survival instinct gonna take over, though. Seems hard to pull off.

 

[Lucilius]

i admire your courage for choosing this method - i certainly think SI would kick in more than you might imagine.

do you have access benzos, or something similar, to make the experience of drowning at sea more peaceful? SI is less likely to hinder your plans while sedated.

or have you considered the shallow water blackout method? you can still raft out to sea and enjoy the sunrise - when you're ready, you can hyperventilate and fall into sea without needing to puncture the raft.

i just feel like puncturing your raft, and leaving yourself with no other option than to struggle in the water will be a very unpleasant and scary way to pass :(

but please forgive me if im misunderstanding your method! <3

Sufficiently far off the coast SI is unlikely to hinder my plans anyways. I trust my ability to dissociate from my body when it comes to dealing unpleasantness of the experience.

 

[SpiderLink]

Wow! That's an amazing way to transition. Will you tie a weight on you so you sink?

Um, I don't think that's appropriate

 

[cami]

that's definitely a way to go. remember to bring water, i know the trip will be short but you don't want to die thirsty. been there, done that and it's an absolute shitshow. stay safe.

 

[90starve]

Sufficiently far off the coast SI is unlikely to hinder my plans anyways. I trust my ability to dissociate from my body when it comes to dealing unpleasantness of the experience.

fair enough :) i hope you can find the peace you're searching for <3

 

[Karavamp]

In light of the clear fact that my life is fucked up beyond repair (from being trans, mainly) I have come to the resolution that I need to go. Here is how I am going to do it.

I am going to buy an inflatable raft and after an afternoon at the beach on a clear night with a calm sea (say starting at 2-3 am) I am going to venture into the waters. After rowing for as much as I have energy for I am going to wait until the sun rises, try to enjoy the view for a few minutes and then puncture the boat. Nobody will know I am doing this. Heck, nobody is going to start suspecting anything in at least a week or two. The chances of rescue are essentially zero and the chances of rescue at precisely the right moment to result in a life with brain damage even more so.

I don't know exactly when I am going to do this. But it has to be done. The alternative is to continue living this nightmare for another few decades.

When you do it I hope you find peace in death.

 

[benchmarker]

Try popping a couple of dozen of sleeping pills a bit before hand, and then go bye bye. If I were to have picked water method I would've done the shameless (show) thing and cinder blocked myself by cutting a hole into a ice sea. Anyways try looking on the bright side, at least you weren't born a pdf file.

 

[Wants-To-End]

Emotionally brutal? Staying alive is emotionally brutal.

Yes I understood, As other persons saying Different methods work for Different People, Hope u end your life as you wish, lets your end be peaceful