MaidenException
god makes no mistakes but he MaidenException
- Sep 26, 2022
- 37
Since I've become disabled I've lost so many friends for being a burden and not being as fun and energetic as I was before. I've lost my career so it's not like anyone relies on me either. My family actively hates me and is always reminding me how much of a burden it is to keep me alive.
I know nobody will give a flying fuck when I catch the bus. If anything, they'll be relieved they don't have to deal with me anymore. It's not like anyone makes any effort to bond with me or be my friend. I can't remember the last time anyone said they loved me.
I know it's selfish but I wish someone would at least pretend that they would be hurt by my CTB. I feel so guilty staying alive knowing that nobody benefits from me being here.
I know nobody will give a flying fuck when I catch the bus. If anything, they'll be relieved they don't have to deal with me anymore. It's not like anyone makes any effort to bond with me or be my friend. I can't remember the last time anyone said they loved me.
I know it's selfish but I wish someone would at least pretend that they would be hurt by my CTB. I feel so guilty staying alive knowing that nobody benefits from me being here.
