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wisp

wisp

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Oct 19, 2023
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Living life from behind a glass, passively, with no job, no friends, no girlfriend, no private means such as cars and motorcycles to get around.
Living as if you were in prison, but locked in your room with all the benefits like internet, Netflix, your smartphone, porn, games.
Is it really worth it? Has it been worth it so far?
To continue to live passively without counting days anymore, you don't even know if it's Thursday or Sunday, you don't know if any day is your birthday.
All this until you see your parents, your relatives, your uncles, die in agony of suffering, from cancers, diabetes, terminal diseases that will take them away and you will be left alone and you won't even have the house with benefits anymore.
What is the point of living like this? Yet I lack nothing to survive, I constantly feel like the actor in The Truman Show. An invisible force that crushes you and won't let you achieve any goals, not even work despite having several certificates of competence, job interviews always end with "we'll be in touch" (with no more callbacks).
I am tired, disheartened, could it be that the only solution is CTB? I am not suffering from depression, anxiety, serious mental or physical illness, I am helpless and alone under the strong waves of the sea.
 
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johann_liebert

Im freien Fall nach oben
Nov 11, 2023
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What is the point of living like this?
None, even if you're the king of SAD it's only cool in the beginning, but after some point you heavily regret living like this. For me it took years.
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
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When times are good it feels worth it, life can give a lot of happiness and joy. The dark depression times though, not so much.

I guess only we know for ourselves. Depression is a nasty illness for sure.
 
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