Help It Only Gets Harder.

[CasperDaGhost]

20 days ago I made my fourth attempt via shotgun. I got the farthest I ever had, I was just a tiny bit away from doing it. I've tried for a fifth attempt multiple times after, but I can't even go to my spot. It's like me getting so close activated something within me and the difficulty increased exponentially as a result. I just can't get myself to do it now. Does anybody know if SN or some other method would decrease the difficulty? Any responses would be appreciated.

 

[tbroken]

If this is what you really want, imo it will decrease difficulty at a psychological level: it is easier to drink a shot, than pointing a shotgun to your head, don't you think?

 

[CasperDaGhost]

If this is what you really want, imo it will decrease difficulty at a psychological level: it is easier to drink a shot, than pointing a shotgun to your head, don't you think?

Yeah I'd say it's 100% what I want, no doubts really. I suppose that the things that held me back from SN originally was the availability, time, and complexity involved. It's easier in theory to just go boom than to follow a whole ass regimen, and actually acquire the stuff. Does anyone know if DMC/MDS is still a possible option (though I would have to wait a few weeks before I could order it.)

I was really hoping that I wouldn't have to do my taxes.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Does anyone know if DMC/MDS is still a possible option (though I would have to wait a few weeks before I could order it.)

Judging by how widespread the BBC article is right now, I'm pretty sure it's only a matter of time before LZ is apprehended so DMC will probably be out of business soon enough.

it is easier to drink a shot, than pointing a shotgun to your head, don't you think?

And here I thought it wouldn't be because it's one and done with the shotgun to the head whereas sn takes a lot longer to start working even though it's rapid, it's not instant.

 

[tbroken]

And here I thought it wouldn't be because it's one and done with the shotgun to the head whereas sn takes a lot longer to start working even though it's rapid, it's not instant.

I understand what you mean, but when I wrote "psychological", i meant that ofc you have to go through preparation when drinking SN, but if you force yourself to think that you are just drinking a shot, maybe it will be easier than pointing a gun at your head...

 

[Deleted member 65988]

but if you force yourself to think that you are just drinking a shot, maybe it will be easier than pointing a gun at your head...

A really salty shot (depending on your taste buds) although maybe it is easier to approach that way for some instead of having a barrel pointed at your head.

 

[CasperDaGhost]

And here I thought it wouldn't be because it's one and done with the shotgun to the head whereas sn takes a lot longer to start working even though it's rapid, it's not instant.

Yeah I thought that as well, especially considering the statistics: 99% fatality rate, little to no pain, and theoretically instant. But there's something beautiful to sitting down in some nice place, listening to music, and watching the sights as you slowly fade away. Even if it'd be more painful and a romanticized way of seeing something that'd probably suck. It's just seems more peaceful I suppose.

 

[damyon]

I don't know if this might help, but you can try to do a battle cry to suppress the instincts somehow.

 

[parallelluniverse]

To me, shotgun is the easiest method. Next would be like a syringe of something but that isn't as easy as a gun.

Maybe, you are trying and trying again to solve a problem but the problem isn't over. Your body and mind have unfinished business.

May love and strength and the force be with you. x